In search of happiness..

 We have often heard people giving us advice to just move on, to forget what happened in the past, to just tear off the pages or even burn the book and start a new life from scratch, to lock away all our memories and mysteries in our hearts and throw away the key as far as we can. What people don't realize is that whatever is easy to say, is actually very difficult to do....more

The Beauty of Being Lost

This morning there were errands.Millions and millions of tiny to-dos, buzzing around my head like gnats. Get the dog washed. Pick up diapers. Go to the post office. Stop at the bank. And the baby was with me and he was starting to fuss in the backseat and I knew he would need to eat in the next ten minutes, which reminded me: this nursing mama still hadn't had breakfast. I was famished. I pulled over to Google Map a McDonald's....more

The pretty things I see while lost

 A little morning jaunt in 20-something degree weather thanks to my terrible directi...more

Five Random Facts

Five Random Facts I was inspired by Tracy of Sellabit Mum to go ol' school blogging and divulge five random things about myself.1. Six years ago I had plastic surgery. It was life-changing and one of those things I have always meant to blog about....more

7 Things Every Blogger Can Learn from LOST

In my non-professional opinion, LOST was the greatest non-cable television series of its time!  Of course you have to remove most of season 6 and the less-than-stellar series finale...but the show was great...and there has not been another one like...more

Hope for Elendil?

Last night my baby cockatiel, Elendil, fly out the door of my townhouse apartment here in Oakhurst, Johnstown.  She was on her playgym in the living room and, before I knew anything, took off and flew right past my ear as I was throwing some garbage away in the outside can. I just moved to Johnstown not quite two weeks ago.  I have not lived in an apartment with an entrance directly to the outside since 1999.  So my skills at dealing with storm doors and regular doors have completely dropped off. ...more

Lost: My Bliss. Reward if found.

I lost my bliss somewhere. Not sure where it went. But it's gone. Have you seen it? Last spotted... Oh, I don't even remember where I last saw it.I'm feeling lost. I'm back at work and everything is great. I've kind of got a handle on what needs to happen to get/keep our finances in check. Kids are great, hubs is great, both sides of the family are great. But I'm not feeling great. I feel like I'm missing something inside me, that passion for... I don't know... something. I feel like I've lost my bliss and I'm not sure how that happened....more

Lost In A Dream

(originally posted @ My Really Real Reality) When I first woke up this morning, a phrase was in my head.  Like a message from a dream.  In those first moments it was clear, and in that hazy half awake stage it had great meaning.  I tried to hold onto it.  But like all dreams, the more awake I became - the more distant it seemed.  Until it was gone.  I can still feel it there.  Just on the fringes of my waking mind.   But I can't s...more
I used to remember most of my dreams.  Then I went through a long phase when I couldn't remember ...more

A Friendship Lost

How do you let a friendship die a slow painless death? It’s hard, especially when you weren’t ready for it.  ...more

Following Fabian

It's starting to become a serious joke in my family. I'm getting famous for getting lost on the Freeways of Southern California. I've sort of hinted at this here. But now that I've come clean about my latest adventure to my family, it's time to share the story on the Blog for my public humiliation....more