I took the Zoloft for the first time a couple minutes ago because I don't want to feel like this anymore. I want to actually want to hold my baby.I remember being unable to put him down, now I don't even want to look at him. How can you be angry at a 4 week old? It isn't his fault that he can't stop crying. Or that he kicks my incision and flails at my sore nipples. Or that he doesn't like to sleep at night. ...more
I’ve had a really bad case of writer’s block the past few days. But even though I can’t think of what to say, I’ve done all of the dishes, I’ve gone grocery shopping, I’ve gone for a 20 minute run, and I’ve even taken a nap. I thought really hard about making dinner, but it’s only 4:45 right now.However, I really don’t want to fold the baskets and baskets of laundry sitting in my living room. Therefore, I’m sitting here trying to write this blog post.This week has been very frustrating....more
The complexities of raising a child when you have a mental illness. Every morning, my daughter and I have breakfast together. It's important to me that she has it every day; studies have touted the multiple benefits of having breakfast.
Plus, she's honestly Linda Blair from the Exorcist when she doesn't have it. That's an added incentive.
I either have oatmeal or cereal mixed with yogurt; she often has cereal, fruit, and yogurt. She drinks milk and I drink my coffee, just with cream. And beside my coffee lay my two magnesium pills (for my migraines) and my tab and a half of Prozac.
Sometimes when I feel vaguely under the weather, I don't really connect all the random "not-quite-right" feelings into one, "Oh, I'm sick!" revelation right away. "Why am I so tired?" I wonder. "I feel thirstier than usual. What's with that?" "I'm kind of cold." And then someone mentions a virus going around, or another member of my family comes down with something, and it'll click....more
WE ARE USING MEDICATIONS~ Yes, you read that right. the mother who was vehemently against medicating children, has put her child on meds. I was always against medicating my son. He was diagnosed with ADHD before he was diagnosed with Autism, and I told the pediatrician from the get go, NO MEDS. As the years have gone by and as I have watched my child struggle, pita and I started to actually entertain the idea.... ...more
I am new to this whole "Chronic Illness" thing. At the beginning of the year, I was bumbling through my life, minding my own business. The only pills I had to consume were for birth control, thyroid control, and cholesterol control. And all of them were well under control. Yes, there were the pesky seizures, excrutiating pain, memory loss, and exhaustion, but they had become just another part of day to day life. My neurologist had me undergo the occasional medical test, but past that I just went about my existance. ...more
Nobody sees the hustle and bustle of a day to day life until you get away to the serenity of the bush. Where there’s the constant sound of the river running over the rapids, the quiet twitter of the birds, and the wonders of nature embed relaxation into your core....more
I Miss You When I Blink has a post that illustrates the difference between being blue and being depressed, and it explains how she came to the decision to use medication to help her manage her depression. It is both a post that points out that none of us are alone, even if it feels that way at times. There is always someone out there who will echo back "me too" as you both climb that mountain of feelings.
I ** heart** sleep.
Don’t get me wrong, but 6 hours is pretty good for me. I remember a time where I was a bear without 8.
It’s all about change, I guess- change and age.
Sure, babies are celebrated when they sleep through the night. Kids want to stay up all night on weekends and summer, but give them a school morning and most of them need a front loader to pick them out of bed and get their day started.
As the ” clubbing” years arrive, I have witnessed many people dragging themselves in on zero-2 hours sleep and try to convince folks they are great!
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