"Grief is in two parts. The first is loss. The second is the remaking of life". -Anne Roiphe Do you ever go through life wondering why some people just seem to have targets on their backs for profound loss? Yes, everyone loses something, someone, sometimes. We all experience it at some point. ...more
I found out today, I will be miscarrying soon. I am going to be 43 years old in a few weeks. The first prenatal check up is usually scheduled at week 8. It is a long wait between getting the positive pregnancy test and getting confirmation via ultrasound that you do, in fact, have a little life growing inside....more
Two months after turning 40, my husband and I "pulled the goalie." Approximately 15 days later, I was pregnant.
"But that was our first try!" I cried. "Who does that?"
"This guy," my husband said, thumbs pointing at his chest.
Note: I’m blissfully six months pregnant with a little boy due in April. He will be what is known as a “rainbow baby,” a baby that is born following a miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant loss. I suffered a miscarriage last spring that, while still early, was traumatic and heartbreaking. This letter is to the baby I lost....more
I am going to say this upfront. If you have had or are close to anyone who has miscarried or is currently pregnant, please skip this post. This post has some very brutal facts that are not pretty or glossed over. It can trigger emotional distress.*********** Space Left So You Can Go Away vs Reading Upsetting Material************ ...more
By the title it sounds a little weird. Might even come across as I don't care but trust me I care, that baby was mine and always will be. It was February 13th, 2015 when it all happened. We were just at home watching TV and doing nothing out the ordinary. We started to kiss and it led to further things such as touching and removing of some articles of clothing. We had done this many times before and always stopped before it got too far so why would this time be any different. IT WAS!...more
Growing up I have always said that my magic number was five. Yes, I wanted to have five children when I would become a mommy. I thought it was so easy to get pregnant. I had no problems getting pregnant with our first baby. He was healthy, beautiful, and most of all loud. He was one little man with one huge personality. He was everything to us. When our son was around a year and a half, I got pregnant again. I loved seeing the plus sign on the pregnancy test and we called and told everyone who we knew that I was pregnant....more
Of course I did know this, but it didn't really hit me until now. Each family is different. We have friends that don't want kids at all. We know couples that have been trying and praying to get pregnant for over a year and nothing has happened yet. Miscarriages – both early and late term – have happened to many people we know.