Home Away from Home

I have always struggled with which place to call home. When I am going to my mom's house I always say, "I am going home." Where I grew up does seem like home. So does the place I call home right now. Confusing. I stayed at my mom's house last week-end. We arrived Friday night to help with end-of-summer garden chores. It felt like home to have Mom's cold fried chicken, pasta salad, and good conversation. It was fun to sample a new sweet red wine together....more

The Chance at Being a Mother....

A Chance at Being a Mother In the back of my mind I have always felt bad that I don't have the opportunity to be a mother.  After losing Millee my doctor told me I can't give birth; the risks are too high to have a baby.  This memory is always in the back of my mind haunting me....more

My "Ahh, I'm a Mama" Moment

After everything was said and done, and I was in my hospital room, the nurse bought my baby to me. The medical staff had told me it would be two hours before they finished their evaluations and tests and bought my daughter to me. At two hours and two minutes, I told Darren that if he did not get up and go get my baby NOW, I was going to do it and it wouldn't be pretty....more
I just realized that the best title I'd ever be given, I've claimed. My little baby is still ...more

Peace Sign

I remember the day but not the year (Was it ninety-five maybe?) when my husband brought home a newspaper article for me to read, an interview with a pedophile.            “I drove through neighborhoods in search of Little Tikes cars, bicycles with training wheels, tiny swimsuits hung on porch railings to dry.”            I was pretty sure he was trying to help but instead his words gorged the panic monster that lived close to me, maybe even...more

You Are My Sonshine

This post is dedicated to my sons.  Yes, I also have two daughters, but they will each want their own post, which will have to include photos, so that will be another day.Ten Rules Mother Wants You To Live By:1.  Don't be a dick2.  Only stare at one set of boobs at a time.  Dude come on, they're JUST boobs.3.  Be nice...more

Miracle Believing Mommy

Luke 1:37 'For with God nothing will be impossible.' Mary was approached by the angel Gabriel with the message that this virgin woman was about to conceive the Son of God. Now stop and imagine yourself in Mary's shoes. She, like any woman would do in this situation, asked 'How?!'. Gabriel reassured her, 'For with God nothing will be impossible.' Wow. NOTHING?? Really God?? YES! Isn't that exciting?!...more

The Real Danger in America: Hospital Birth

As tempting as it is to make emotional arguments against the safety of home birth, as Feministe did recently, it's not home births that are driving America's high rates of maternal and fetal death. It's hospital birth. America has among the highest maternal mortality rate of any industrialized country. ...more
The problem I have with this blog, and all the others, and all the other articles, is that there ...more

Have I Become Racist Against White People?

I recently got into a little disagreement on Facebook, through a comment thread on an acquaintance’s page. I left a comment saying that people who fly confederate flags are generally not the kind of people who a black man (or woman) might want to be caught in a dark alley with. My point was not so much that flying a confederate flag makes you a racist, but in my experience, they usually are.Then I got called a racist. By a white guy from Mississippi. Which, as another commenter on the thread pointed out, was kind of humorous, seeing as I am also white....more
I've always hated the "racist" word. We all have prejudices, as even research on babies proves. ...more

7 Reasons Why I Love My Book Club

 One glorious Wednesday night a month, I get to go to Book Club. To say that I look forward to this night is a gross understatement. We rotate through houses, the 10 of us each anxiously awaiting the month that's ours. We talk and laugh and sometimes cry. Oh, and we discuss a book we've all collectively read...most of the time; that is, most of the time we talk about it and most of the time we've all read it....more
 @alienbody DO IT! Grab 6-8 folks who like to read and go for it! (Works best if the 6-8 don't ...more

What If?

How can this be commonplace? The giving away of my child to other countries, other cultures, another mother even, on the other side of the world.             It seems to get easier each time but really, it just takes me longer to get to what if. What if What if this is the last time I see you? Ever.             Why do you never glance back after you pass through the metal detector? From that far away you can’t see how damp my face is or hear my sobs....more