Frustrated, scared, impatient, mad,sad, angry! This is me right now. I have 2 boys that drive me nuts. Don't get me wrong. I love them with all my heart. They are 3 and 7 and they are constantly on my nerves. If I have just one at a time, I'm ok. I can handle that. But the two of them together I can not deal with. The hitting, bickering and the screaming. My 3 year old loves to scream at the top of his lungs. You know that blood curdeling scream that physically hurts your insides. I'm tired....more

Two Gifts

As a young tween I was madly in love with Hemingway and Poe; forget the Captain of the basketball team or even being popular for that matter....more

Mr. Mom!!

It's 9:38pm on a Saturday night, Not a child is stirring, not even my spouse, When all of the sudden, I realize there's no noise, I grab the remote in the pile of toys, Assume the position on the soft, comfy couch, Stick my hand down the front of my pants like a slouch! I'm enjoying the role of Daddy today, I worked, I shopped, and came home with a smile, I was greeted by my children, arms stretched out a mile, They had hugs and giggles waiting for me, Play with me, play with me, will you Mommy?

Not Even James Van Der Beek Can Explain What Parenthood Feels Like to Me -- Can You?

Most new parents, when trying to capture this emotion, spout off some variation of It’s the most indescribable feeling… which is somewhat problematic for me in that they can’t seem to describe it. It evidently just has to be experienced. Or they say something like, Man, when they put that baby in your arms… and then they just shake their heads. Also not tremendously helpful. I hate the idea that there’s this wildly powerful emotion running around out there in the world that I might never catch. But is the curiosity over this feeling enough to justify the lifelong commitment, expense, blah, blah, blah, of a child? ...more
Great timing- I was just trying to explain to my sister-in-law who's expecting her first the ...more

New Labels: Widow, Single Parent

When a spouse dies and you have children two things happen at once. You become a widow(er), and a single parent. Simultaneously.Overnight I adopted new labels. One moment I was married. The next I was not only widowed, but the sole care provider for our daughter.What do these new labels mean? Do they mean anything at all? I would say it depends on the day. If I am missing my husband, my friend, I feel quite widowed. Other days I accept that he is gone and I embrace that I am single. Single-with-experience....more
I hate the word widow.  That one word makes me feel so powerless.  I hate the single status too ...more

Infancy Blows. Take Pictures

I was thinking earlier about just how much I dislike the infant phase of child wrangling. In all honesty I would love to just skip straight to a year old but then I think back to the absolute horror of Charlie's first two years and how much more I am enjoying him on the eve of three. Sure there were some great times but all in all life had been incredibly difficult. It started soon after conception. another idealized aspect of parenthood. In my reality pregnancy is awful. No matter how hard I try I can't seem to keep my feet on the ground. Plus it's uncomfortable....more

Children's Book Author & Mother Jane Tara's Lessons for Parents & Young Flyers

There's been a lot of ink out there about the perils of being on planes with parents, babies and children, bantering between many parents and those want family sections on planes or childfree flights, and even an April Fool's joke by Ryanair....more

The difference between motherhood and parenthood

Today, I learned what is the difference between motherhood and parenthood. I wasn't even aware that there was a difference, probably because one is so close to the other. Also, I have been a mother as long as I have been a parent. As a mother, my role is to love, nurture, dry tears, encourage and support them. As a parent, my role is to educate, show the difference between right and wrong and to be a teacher to my children....more

To My Long-Lost Love, Sleep: You Complete Me

I’m a married woman. I probably shouldn’t have room in my heart for another. And I certainly shouldn’t be posting online what I really feel for you. But I can’t pretend anymore. ...more