wild things grow

 Clouds cover the sun and snow covers where the garden has been and will be. The ground will eventually thaw, and hibernation will stretch and yawn and come back to life. Wild things will grow whether anyone believes they will or not. They just do....more

This Writing Life

Writing is really weird.But it's weird in good ways.Some times I sit here and I think something, and then I write it out, and the most amazing thing happens... people read it!  If I post it to one of the other blogs I write for, sometimes tens of thousands of people read it.And I don't really know what to do with that....more


Rumination is when we mentally replay the same negative scenario over and over again without any advancement towards closure.  It has been fairly well established that women generally ruminate more than men and there is also a good set of theories on why that is; we are more invested in relationships, we are more insecure and less powerful and we have so much more to ruminate about.  ...more

The Not-Good-Enough Mother

I used to think that my intense desire to have children, to be a mother, was enough. It’s not. You have to have more than desire. You have to be more than needy. I face a truth over and over again: I am not a good-enough mother. It’s in the details. I am not good enough in Situation A with Process B. I am not good enough at modeling Behavior XYZ. I do not respond to Tantrum of Intensity #524 with the proper level of Calming Voice Version #683. It’s in the Overall. Good Mother = Someone Else. Me = Poser....more

i will never be good enough. i cheated on my husband. I proved i'm human and weak. I will never ...more