When I took a full-time job in 1995 after 17 years of being self-employed, I was absolutely giddy knowing that every two weeks, regardless of cash flow, I would be getting a paycheck. Being gainfully employed was, for me, an 18-month busman's holiday. Eighteen months of not worrying about cash flow.  Eighteen months of smiling every two weeks knowing that my checking account would feel the love of my being gainfully employed.