Reflections In The Mirror (...or My Sobriety - Day 592)

Yesterday was a particularly rough day.It was one of those chew you up, spit you out, and then run you through a wood chipper for fun kinds of days that left me mentally drained, physically exhausted, cranky and depressed.   Add to that a grueling 60 minute-long drive on the freeway with all of my bestest friends, and I found myself just about at the end of my rope....more

What Will Others Think?

From UnPickled Blog:I recently changed my hair colour from (monthly-salon-visit) blonde to (do-it-myself) red. The change was mostly motivated by convenience, and perhaps Julianne Moore played a role, too. When I had an actual hair colour of my own it was strawberry blonde, so neither one feels to foreign to me....more

What threatens my sobriety - getting sober is one thing, staying sober is another.

Triggers threaten my sobriety. There will always be moments in my life where I will just want to get shit-faced drunk. I fantasize about it more often than I’d like to officially admit. I’m pretty sure I won’t ever actually do it, but in my wise old age of 34 I’ve learned that you can’t ever be too sure about anything and besides, cockiness is dangerous. My intention and mission in life is to stay sober, but if I want to maintain this I know I can’t just sit around and wish on it, I have to work hard at it....more

Are you frightened too?

Are you frightened too?...more

Ask4Recovery - Fear is one of my biggest triggers. Help!

Hello friends! Today’s ‘Ask’…Fear is one of my biggest triggers. Help!...more

Surrendering to My Alcoholism

“At least you’re fighting it, “she said. “Good for you. My father wasn’t able to fight his alcoholism and it killed him,” she went on, her voice lowering to a whisper. “And if I can’t fight my alcoholism I’m going to die just like he did.”  The word “fight” immediately set off alarm bells inside my head. “Not fight,” My mind whispered....more

Survival Livingston Style

Tracy Livingston Anniversaries come and go all celebrated with fanfare and looking ahead to the future. This month while my family celebrates two milestones I do not look ahead more than 24 hours at a time. I have learned that life is too precious to look at an entire year and plan life as I see it on the excitement of an anniversary. Both anniversaries deal with precious gain from a possible loss of lives....more

The 12 Steps of Getting Over A Break-Up

Imagine that -- working the steps in every area of our lives including a devastating breakup. This is what keeps us sober and clean and sane. And really the whole relationship experience will be for naught unless we learn something from it, yes? Yes. Let's work our way through this. ...more
This is another great 12 step program and comes with community. So ...more

Just Sign Here

It is amazing to me. I, myself, order up something from the Universe and then spend a great deal of time and energy trying to decide if I will actually accept delivery of the very thing I (myself) ordered. It must be some form of insanity....more
I opened the door and received. It was amazing. more

I Don't Get It

A recurring theme throughout my life has been that I don't quite "get it."  Despite all my best efforts and intentions, I somehow fuck shit up. ...more