Grounding my body.

I have been thinking about the point where the body and the mind split.Usually I would never try to do that. I’m all about bridging the two, integrating, getting everything in balance.But lately I’ve been in an interesting space, where pulling the two apart is necessary. And it’s hard to find that point....more

The Best Laid Plans: What to do when the treatment makes things worse.

     It is interesting how previous damage really can change a person.  After several rather unfortunate occurrences, I was officially diagnosed with PTSD. PTSD that supposedly had a great hand in the current inconvenience that is fibromyalgia. I did the whole therapy thing, for years. I tried the medications I could afford..even attempted meditation, yoga, etc. No go. For the most part, I just try to do what many other people do...bury the bad stuff deep and try really, really hard not to think too much. ...more

Day 18 - When the Patient Comes Home

 Back in June, I wrote about my DHthe hang glider. I wrote ...more

Day 11 - When Grannys Go Boom...!

From cinemagay.comThere's a scene from "30 Rock" which I can totally relate to.  It's from the third episode of the first season where Liz Lemon is set up on a date with Gretchen Thomas....more

Part 7, Regrets

Hey faithful readers! The contents of this post has been removed because of recently signing a contract with a publisher :) Thank you so much for the support everyone!!! Stay tuned for more details. <3-River Rei Hayden"The night is long that never finds the day." - Shakespeare...more
Aha! Finally caught up to what I have read so far. *hugs* You're doing great hun.more

This Watercolor Life


Fragile Things

At some point everything becomes clear. That doesn’t necessarily mean a good clear, but fact is preferred over fiction when you’re locked up in a mental ward. Again. And it’s snowing out–and worse–it’s New Year’s Eve and you’re thirtieth birthday is coming and you’re little girl must be looking for you. It’s all you can do to decipher the shell-shocked woman looking back at you in the tin mirror bolted to the wall above your sink....more

Day 6 - Will you still love me...?

 "Do you still love it?" I was sitting in the atrium at the Chihuly Garden and Glass Museum in Seattle during the national conference for ACEP* enjoying a glass of wine and some fine appetizers, so it took me a moment to think about what...more

Do You Expect Joy?

"In a culture of deep scarcity - of never feeling safe, certain, and sure enough - joy can feel like a setup."  Brene Brown in Daring Greatly ...more