Seriously This Really Happened

Life can be so great.  Sometimes I'm convinced that God is trying to hand me my ass on a platter.  This is a true story.  Zero embellishment, simply because none is required....more

ATTITUDE OF GRATITUDE: Focusing on the good

"Feeling gratitude and not expressing it is like wrapping a present and not giving it." ~William Arthur WardIt doesn't take much for me to rise above; a little encouragement, a little grace, a strong hug.It doesn't take much for me to get knocked down either; running myself ragged, negative interactions, unforeseen mishaps.  When I'm in this place, I need to meditate on the good.  Thankfully, I don't need to look far into my past, or present, to find something to be grateful for....more

A Rough Day

I didn't post yesterday due to attending a memorial service.  Without a doubt, the worst part of aging is the ever increasing number of deaths, loss of friends, and funerals to attend....more
I agree that words fall short.  Sometimes silence is more healing, along with the hugs and ...more

Saying goodbye to maternity clothes

I always knew I would love being pregnant.  Unlike most third trimester women, I wanted to keep my baby right where she was; in my womb, kicking at me from within my body, making my tummy dance, and putting on quite the show.I was in no hurry to release her.  I was in too much awe and wonderment at the life I could cuddle and hug, who could not yet run away, out of the reach of my arms....more

New Labels: Widow, Single Parent

When a spouse dies and you have children two things happen at once. You become a widow(er), and a single parent. Simultaneously.Overnight I adopted new labels. One moment I was married. The next I was not only widowed, but the sole care provider for our daughter.What do these new labels mean? Do they mean anything at all? I would say it depends on the day. If I am missing my husband, my friend, I feel quite widowed. Other days I accept that he is gone and I embrace that I am single. Single-with-experience....more
I hate the word widow.  That one word makes me feel so powerless.  I hate the single status too ...more

Health is Wealth series: Sleep - "The best cure for insomnia is to get a lot of sleep" W.C. Fields

"I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when I'm awake, you know?"  Ernest Hemingway"If you can't sleep, then get up and do something instead of lying there worrying. It's the worry that gets you, not the lack of sleep."  Dale Carnegie...more

Happy thought #30: Sleep

How sweet it is to sleep.  Oh, that my dreams of sleep might awaken to reality, and my reality drift off into sleep.

Happy thought #28: Neil's tree (a memorial set up by my neighbors - includes a video of a field trip to the tree)

Click below to watch a video of Alexis and I taking a field trip to Neil's tree.Once upon a time lived the Knights.  These particular Knights lived just up the hill from me, their backyard diagonally adjacent to mine....more

Learning how to die - Jon Foreman

After my husband's memorial service, a friend left me a note to listen to Jon Foreman's, The House of God, forever.  I was later given his Winter album, a listening experience rich in meaningful tracks about death and dying.  There were two songs from this album, plus a single, I would play over and over again, trying to absorb every acoustic and lyrical nutrient....more

Flight 796 departing grief, arriving in paradise at 3:07pm. ALL ABOARD!

The sound of the waves call out from the sea like an amplified heart beat.I lay on an orange, striped veranda couch and listen.  I feel as though I am resting one ear on a man's chest, drifting into slumber as the sound of his heartbeat lulls me to sleep....more
:) Two more days. Two more days...more