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"A good nude photograph can be erotic, but certainly not sentimental or pornographic."

--Bill Brandt, British photographer (1904-1983)

In 1988, I was a staff writer at my college magazine and was given the most liberating assignment of my life: Interview campus art models and see what it was like to lay around naked all day. Once I discovered the models were paid $10 an hour - a fortune to a struggling student - I immediately signed up and proposed a first-person account to my editor.

My debut was not well planned. It was the first day of my period and let's just say I had to be a vigilant monitor. But what I remember most about that first session, was when one of the students suggested they move "the model" - I was rarely addressed directly - to another part of the room for better lighting. As I was sprawled out across a low table with a bounty of pillows, I was told not to budge - they would simply move the table. Then, four strapping young men each got up, grabbed a table leg and moved a very naked me across the room. I felt like Cleo-fucking-patra - it was surreal.

Then there was that other time when my hair, piled high atop my head, got a tad too close to the overhead light. "Um, teacher," someone said, "I think the model's on fire!" I remember thinking, 'The model's on fire? That's weird. Hey, wait, I'm the model!' On that day, I felt more like Joan of Arc.

Over the next decade or so, I made a healthy living as an Art Model in art schools, senior centers, junior colleges, universities, animation houses and movie studios. Occasionally, I would pose for private artists or artist groups - the best gigs of all.

I would tell myself it was for the money (I made $500 in one day as the 'official breasts' of the American Cancer Society Breast Cancer Awareness pamphlet) but the reality is, the modeling made me love my body again. Growing up female in Southern California's shallow beach-celebrity culture does not bode well for one's body image. Like most of my peers, I thought myself ugly and too fat. We were all wrong, of course, but hanging out at the beach every weekend sure made you look down a lot - mostly on yourself. There's nothing like playing the proverbial bowl-of-fruit role to put things in perspective.

Turns out, there was an unexpected benefit to posing nude - beyond paying my rent. It didn't take long for me to appreciate the beauty of my nude body as much as the artists did. Being the proverbial bowl of fruit, their job was to capture me in my natural state, not to judge or wish me any different. To this day, I feel far more attractive with my clothes off than on. The experience also gave me an additional bonus - an appreciation for artful nudes. Once I felt that liberation, it was easier to capture it from the other end.

So imagine my delight when I came across the "Curves" project at Mozaik, a Canadian site that celebrates art through human interaction and group projects.

"The subject of roundness and of slenderness could not be more actual. Nowadays, several women have difficulty appreciating their own body image. However, The Human Mozaïk chose to sing the praises of curves and of round bodies by inviting some forty women from across Canada aged from 18 to 50 years old to lend their forms to semi-nude photography and to unique artistic creations inspired by their curves. Each model’s curves and roundures were interpreted by different artists according to their respective styles, techniques and medium."

The Mozaïk~Curves book is also a collection of testimonies, poems and affirmations written by the models themselves - check it out.

Also, do explore ArtNudes, a photoblog dedicated to displaying a variety of tasteful creative nudes from a long list of talented photographers. Curated by Michael Barnes, the site is a resting place for the photographic appreciation of the human form au naturale. I'm partial to Grace Oh's outdoor shots - the reminder that we are natural beings in a natural world, after all.

Speaking of which ... my good pal, Lisa (another budding photographer) and I make an annual hike up in the mountains and sprawl our naked bods out across big

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tangerinelullaby 5 pts

I'd love to be photographed that way! 

I'm thankful for landing into this article. I love discussing about topics about art and femininity.

I myself is also an art student, we've drawn naked bodies and loved them at its natural form. I have always wondered how nude models feel while they are standing there in front of us. During this time, I am very insecure about my body and I am thinking there is no way I can do that.

Everything changed when I got married and gave birth. Being a mother is a transcedental experience. You love your body more and you are not ashamed to show it in front of your husband. I know that I do.

I am also bothered at the idea that everyone wants to get too skinny. I told them that having "curves" is a definition of a woman, not skin and bones. Anyway, what else can I do about that? They're too obsessed about being a stick. 

This is refreshing. I finally got to read what's it like to be a nude model. Thank you thank you for sharing this.

 -Yvie

 http://tangerineslullaby.eachday.com

Heather Clisby 5 pts

Lucky for you I am going on vacation in a couple of hours or that last paragraph would be torturous ... What bliss!

Costume, indeed. My favorite is swimming naked in the ocean with the waves just tossing me around. In my next life, I'm going to be a mermaid.  

BlogHer Contributing Editor, Photography ( http://blogher.org/node/19958 )
Proprietor, ClizBiz ( http://www.clizbiz.blogspot.com/ )

mashadutoit 5 pts

That's an amazing image. Being in a room with lots of little clay replicas. :)

Although you would not think it from my posts, I am fairly private about my body. But there is just simply nothing compared to being naked outside, particularly if it involves water.

My husband and I were on holiday recently at a lagoon. On our last day there we sort of bullied one another to go for a last swim - very early in the morning. Sun just above he horizon, raining, misty, very lonely, lots of reeds and birds and the water actually quite warm. Wearing a costume sort of just gets in the way.

Heather Clisby 5 pts

I'm not sure which is more beautiful - your note or your name. I LOVE the sound of 'Candelaria' - I think I will borrow it when I want to feel more glamorous ...

I agree with you on the skin thing. The feel of one's own skin is so sensual and comforting - it's kind of addicting.

As for 'normal-sized' ... I'm not familiar with it.

BlogHer Contributing Editor, Photography ( http://blogher.org/node/19958 ) & Animal Concerns, Proprietor, ClizBiz ( http://www.clizbiz.blogspot.com/ )

Candelaria Silva 5 pts

I know several women who've told me that they never get undressed in front of their husbands or significant others.  I found that amazing.  If you can't be naked in front of someone you have sex with how can you really be sexual and release yourself and give it your all?

I have never been an average or normal size in my life but I have always liked the feel and look of my own body.  I still like most of it now and what I don't like because as you age things change for many of us, considering the alternative I'm glad to be able to be naked - wrinkles, sags and all.

The feel of naked skin - nothing like it.

Congrats on being as free as you've been able to be with you nakedness.

Heather Clisby 5 pts

And yes! I had forgotten to mention the meditative aspect. I was reminded of it recently when I viewed the film, "The Diving Bell and Butterfly" - when he talks about how his mind went on grand adventures and visited his internal memory bank over and over again. That's how it felt and it's a very useful skill to have. We rarely have the opportunity to open those rusty doors inside our brains and being forced to sit still really does the trick.

Double yes on the undressing thing. The ONLY TIME I was uncomfortable was when a teacher requested that I go through the motions of undressing for a lesson on motion. I was very uncomfortable and I think the students were too. I am still mad at myself for not speaking up - it felt too much like slow motion stripping. Having the students see my personal clothing was far too intimate. I never posed for that teacher again. 

Triple yes! I hear ya on the sculpture thing too. Due to a series of illnesses and flaky scheduling, I ended up being the ONLY model available during one semester for the beginning sculpture class at San Francisco's Art Institute. One day, I was changing in a small room and realized that the room was lined with shelves - all holding small figures. When I looked closer, I realized that they were all me. Hundreds of little clay Me's. BIZARRE. 

Masha - we should write a book! 

~Heather 

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Proprietor, ClizBiz ( http://www.clizbiz.blogspot.com/ )

mashadutoit 5 pts

I'm an artist and I've posed for life drawing classes myself quite a bit when I was a student. I found it strangely compelling. The thing is that you have to sit very still for a long time. Depending on how nice the people are, up to an hour or more. That means COMPLETELY STILL and not moving at all. And if they are not nice, they dont tell you "half and hour left before the break" and you cant look at your watch, because you are not wearing one and anyway - you cant move.

I'm a very hyped sort of person so the enforced stillness became a sort of meditation. I found it very relaxing.

I also enjoyed the challenge of creating poses that are interesting to draw.

The worst place I posed for was for the 2nd year students at the Technicon. Firstly, they told me I could keep my underwear on if I wanted. No way! Naked is not a problem, but standing in front of a bunch of students in my (probably rather old) underwear! Not a chance.

The first session they made me hang in a sort of metal cage. Not much fun. And in the second session I was for some reason so uncomfortable that I kept shaking and sweating. I never posed for them again.

It is quite funny how it works. People are quite happy and comfortable to draw you naked. But they want you to undress behind a screen, not in front of them. They also dont want you to walk over to the screen all naked - you need a nice robe which you can use as a sort of in-between stage from dressed to naked.

And also like you mentioned, they dont talk to you while you are naked. Only when you have your clothes on.

Another artist friend made a complete body cast of me, which became a sculpture. Basically a double of me, but made out of plaster of paris. Very strange experience, and very uncomfortable as I was her first body cast and pretty much an experiement. I've had the experience of being introduced to people who have "met" me before in my plaster of paris incarnation.