Grace and Mercy!
I have been looking for a new faithful companion for some time now and have been putting it on hold for several reasons. At first, after we found a new home for Shorty, I was waiting until I was done with the traveling that I needed to do to see my son graduate from Basic Training and then from AIT school. He is now settled in at his first duty station and is enjoying his first taste of living on his own – well as best as you can when you are in the Army. I must say I am a very proud Mom!! He is doing great!!
Another reason I had been putting off finding my new faithful companion is the budget – yes I am still OCD about my budget. I can afford the day to day expenses of having a dog. The cutest little rent house ever is not very big so I can not have a dog that eats more than I do –a big dog and I would have to take turns – one on the porch and one in the house and then we would have to switch. I must say it is beginning to look like summer is coming and I would not like to have to take my turn on the porch when it is so hot outside and would really like to only have to be outside because we are taking our daily walk together! While it is really a good idea to rescue a dog from the pound or a local animal rescue organization it is anywhere from $50 to id="mce_marker"50 dollars to take one that route. Yes that means the dog would be fixed and up to date on their shots but that is one chunk of change all at once right now. I am really looking for someone honest to be giving away a dog and know that I will need to as soon as possible take it to the place and get it spayed/neutered depending on what kind of faithful companion I find that way. But then I have time to save up for that visit as well as any vet visits needed while still having the company of my new faithful companion. And I have been trying to stay away from puppies but do you know I found on a computer site here in Green Country someone who is giving away free Schnauzer puppies! Schnauzers are on my list of possible dogs! I have been thinking about getting a puppy and have even figured out how I could puppy proof my kitchen so that he/she would be fine while I was at work. I have been making a list of good reasons to get a puppy instead of an older dog- I could teach it way cool tricks- could make sure it is happy and not spend all of it’s time trying to get out of the fence. He/She would be used to my lifestyle and the hours I work and when we would take our daily walks. When you take a dog from the pound you are not always sure why it is there – does it spend its day getting out of the fence and is always having to be rescued from the pound? Or will it be mean to children- and if I were to get a puppy I could teach it to be good to kids, other dogs, and it would get along with everyone.
So, keep your fingers crossed this will all work out- all in God’s timing right? Even if it does not work out with these puppies for some reason, I have a feeling it will not be long for me to find my new faithful companion. Since the doctors are convinced that I am diabetic I have been making the necessary changes in my diet and am looking forward to someone to exercise with me. My cousin told me about a book that will help me get rid of the wheat in my diet. I am going to get that book this week to see how the author is suggesting we make this change and what to do in the place of wheat. I am supposed to have some carbs because otherwise my blood sugar would drop to low and that is just as bad as being too high. But I am all about changes that will help my diet make sense and be easy enough to be able to maintain for the rest of what I am building out to be a long rest of my life. Even the few changes I have been making and the fact it has only been about two or three weeks since I have been taking the medicine for the diabetes I have been feeling so much better. I have had more energy and this last week have found it not so hard getting up in the morning. That means to me that I have been sleeping better – not having to get up so many times for trips down the hall each night! Since I am sleeping better at night it is not hard for me at all to stay awake during the day – no matter how long the days seem in the must type like lightening department. My cousin said that since she has been living wheat free she has not had any migraines- sinus or otherwise even though we are in the height of allergy season and she is used to having several migraines each month! She is working on cleaner living as well in her diet. It has been fun to have someone to compare notes with and to see what works and what does not work! It has been great talking to her (we message through Facebook but I still hear her voice in my head when I read her messages) – I have always wanted to have a better relationship with my family and know that it is me that dropped the ball – so it has been really awesome for me to have something to share with her- it will be great when we are both later in our lives and have more energy because we took the time now to make the changes in our diet to allow us to be that way!
In the flurry of finding a new faithful companion, testing my sugars, tracking my carbs, working on staying on my weight watchers plan, and deciding what in the world am I going to eat today while standing in front of the open refrigerator door- I needed to make sure I am not trying to fill my life again with things that don’t work! That this new change in my world would be one more thing that I can use as an excuse to not deal with what made me eat in the first place. The eating to fill the void we all now know is not the answer.
Let me take a moment here to assure you God did not give me diabetes to punish me for something or to prove a point for you all to see. I caused the diabetes by not making very good food choices or taking time this last year to do much if any exercise. Honestly over the last year exercise has been pretty much not existent except for the month or two I did go upstairs and walk on the treadmill at work. I liked doing that and am starting that again this week. I bought those exercise DVD’s but am not going to be able to do very much at a time on them because I am so out of shape right now! Even the nurse at the diabetes clinic that I went to said I should start walking 10 minutes each day and work up from there. I must say it is pretty humiliating when someone looks at you and knows without even really spending any time with you that you are not able to do much in the way of moving around. I have always in the past seemed to be the one that was able to stand all day and do what ever needed to be done. I was able to lift my end of the heavy furniture with no trouble and keep up with most anyone that I was walking with. Now- not so much! Please understand that God has nothing but good things for me in my life. We (me and the mouse in my pocket) need to remember it is just like we tell our children when they are growing up. Each choice we make has a consequence- sometimes the decisions we make have great consequences and we reap good blessings. Sometimes we make decisions that the consequences are not very good, for instance your health declining and your body rebelling and not lining up with the Word of God – how can it I have not been fueling it with what it needs to be healthy and work like God intended. Which means- I am ashamed to say -that I have not been a very good witness in my life in this area. Does this mean then that my whole witness has been contaminated by my bad choices? That will be something for me to study out and to make sure I correct as soon as possible. I would not want anyone to think that God did this to me- so let me say it again! God did not give me diabetes to prove a point! The diabetes, the high blood pressure, the whole out of shape body, the excessive weight gain is my consequence to work out from my bad lifestyle choices in the past! I have repented and asked for forgiveness and know that God has washed me white as snow again! Thank you Jesus for your grace and mercy!! It is up to me now to keep on the path for good health and do better and showing the world what good things God has in store for us!
Back to my thought- I needed to be sure I am not again filling the void in my life with unwise choices. So I looked in the scriptures for something to tell me I am doing a good thing getting a new faithful companion.
Proverbs 27:23 NLT
Know the state of your flocks, and put your heart into caring for your herds,
That made me feel better- yes I still need to be careful that I don’t allow this to be my main focus and continue to work on the fact it needs to be God that I turn to when I am feeling lonely and the house gets too quiet. So any of you who have felt the empty nest feeling will know that I have been on my knees a lot lately!
Here is God getting my attention!
1 Corinthians 6:19-20 NLT
19 Don’t you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself, 20 for God bought you with a high price. So you must honor God with your body.
Yes God- I understand and ask for your forgiveness.
Here is the proof that we are forgiven and given a second chance!
1 John 1:9
9 But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness.
Thank you Jesus for the second chance!! He is so worthy of our praise and worship for his grace and mercy he shows us. I know I don’t deserve it but am ever so thankful for it!
If you are in the same boat as I am in or just think you may be, know that God loves us way to much to leave us here! He wants us to be healthy and enjoy the long life he promised us. For me the answer was to ask for forgiveness, learn my lesson and walk out my new life. I want the same for you!!
I am praying for you!