Sometimes…I want to run away. Just get in the car and…run away. Just pack it up and go. No clue where/when/how…just go.
Not feasible — how on Earth would I explain to my boys. “Hey, I got to bounce away…I’ll be back sometime…peace”. They would never understand and it would be mighty selfish to up and walk out. Even though I really really want to.
I’ve decided to invent “The Gray”. “The Gray” is place that you can take your mind to…anytime. Like take a nap, go to “The Gray”. Lay on the couch, go to “The Gray”. In my mind, it’s like a cone of silence. You just sit….surrounded by gray. No noise. No fear. No sadness. No anxiety. No worries. No anger. No reflection. No rehashing the old. No nothing.
Just….”The Gray”. A quiet soothing silent place. Of comfort. Of recharging. Of goodness. Of peace. Of tranquility. Just sitting….in “The Gray”. Doing absolutely NOTHING. Just…being.
Can you imagine? You escape to “The Gray”. Covered in gray. With all gray. And a side of….gray.
Gray is neutral……gray isn’t the “it has to be black or white”…it’s gray. It lives in the middle. It lives with mixing good and bad, happy and sad, up and down. Gray.
A cone of….”The Gray”. I imagine an egg you get into…with “The Gray”. And sit. Sleep. Veg. Go into a blank place in your mind. A clear whiteboard of nothing.
I can image “The Gray”….I think it would be a mental recharge that I need. To surround in the “The Gray”…..and not think.
Could you use “The Gray”? I would gladly share.
Love, Searching for the Gray