RD's life and when he left

Having watched and been with a child hood friend  for the last 4 months of his life as as he died of Aids at 30...you NEVER get over it... but the pain of why then  lessens and one comes to be grateful that you had that time with that person  ..He died at a time when my generation lost many many friends from aids,,, It became the norm for some time as we had to accept their deaths.... I stilll do not get it but I am glad we had that time together ... Some years on it stil makes me cry,,,,,He finally walked out to sea and took back as much choice as he still had of when he wanted to go ....One realises how in fact we live until we die and boy did he live a big 30 years..