I'd say I spent the majority of my teenage years going from diet to diet trying to achieve the perfect dream body that I had seen in so many movies and magazines. Instead of achieving this, however, I ended up leading myself down a very dangerous path of eating disorders, depression, and a HORRIBLE relationship with food. It took me a LONG time to recover from all of this, and, to this day, I still have struggles with food.
I’d been scheduled for a doctor’s appointment that was meant to address the ongoing pain and lack of mobility in my left hip. The persistent injury was at its worst in last January, preventing me from even walking normally, much less going out for a run. At the time, I substituted my running workouts entirely with low impact cardio and, when I was disciplined, some weight-training. As the pain began to subside, I hesitantly resumed running, limiting myself to once per week....more
I will never be able to diet freely. I have given up that right. A diet will always be lethal to me. It will always be something that will likely spiral into full blown restriction. They say it takes a certain amount of days to create a new habit. For me, one day can make a difference. What happens today will mimic tomorrow. The slightest decrease or increase can spark a change in my eating habits....more
"Do you really need that cookie?" My Grandpa asked me, when I joined my cousins in eating Christmas cookies while helping our Grandma put up the Christmas tree. I looked away and pretended I didn't hear him while I ate the cookie in shame. I had to have been about 10 years old, and that was about the first time I realized I was fat....more
The last time I saw my sister was at the Olive Garden. I don't even like the Olive Garden yet that bastion of suburban culinary mediocrity is where I had my last physical contact with her. It was a fine enough lunch (who doesn't like bread sticks?) but what was much more important than the food could ever be was the simple fact that we actually had a good time. Sadly that was not always the case when we were together. She seemed to be happy with a new job and a rekindled relationship with her only grandchild....more
Tonight John and I tried to see Black Mass. He had free movie passes, so we couldn’t do the whole online ticketing thing; we drove to Woburn to find out they were completely sold out. (Duh. Every Bostonian who was separated by at the most three degrees from Whitey was all over that movie this weekend). However, the drive wasn’t fruitless: upon pulling into the cinema parking lot, I burst into tears and finally figured out why it’s been really goddamn hard gaining weight back since the wedding....more
From a very young age, I was exposed to the world of ballet, in which creativity meets high discipline. Nothing compared to the rush I felt after winning my first ballet recital, and so my love affair with dance began. Most of my afternoons as a child were happily spent in tights and leotards. I ended up trying every kind of dance from ballet and contemporary, to modern and jazz; I just couldn't get enough....more
You guys are too gullible, come on now, I’m not about to bash these poor girls.Some people don’t see the truth when they look in the mirror. They don’t see that they are wasting away. You have no idea how easy it is to convince yourself that you’re fat, ugly, old or anything else.It’s just as easy to convince yourself that you’re perfect and beautiful just the way you are.Pssst, trust the wrinkled, old looking one.http://skinnyandsingle.wordpress.com/...more