Holiday Chaos ~ I'm not missing it!
So, here we are, with less than 48 hours til the "Big Day"!
I have to tell you that I have NOT missed the chaos that goes with it all. Feeling rushed, crowds of ignorant people, heavy traffic, going into debt and everything else that goes with it. Oh, I have the outside and inside of the house decorated and I even have a tree up and done. However, after losing my mom last year, being over 1200 miles from "home" and having lost my job in October...we're making the best of a not so great situation. Last year I was working but the hubs wasn't. We were lucky to have a holiday dinner and the only decorations up were the Christmas cards we had received, on a table in the living room.
To put it bluntly, it just hasn't been good for the 2nd year in a row. I swear every year that I'm going to shop all year long so I'm done by Thanksgiving and every year, it never happens. We've had the kids buy gifts for the grandkids and put a tags on the gift from us. The fact is, we simply cannot afford to do anything more than what we're doing.
I miss spending time with the family during the holidays. Every year there would be more gifts than you could shake a mistletoe at! There'd be cookies galore, decorations everywhere - so much so that you would have thought Christmas threw up at our house! Christmas Eve was pure chaos beause everyone would come to our house and we'd spend hours eating, drinking, exchanging gifts and being merry! Oh how I miss those times! But this was the choice we made. We knew it would be more difficult being away from family.
I'm sure it will get better as the years go on. We'll make more friends, family is considering moving south to our area and eventually, I'll find a job and we'll be able to pick ourselves up & brush ourselves off. But what I have learned is that one doesn't need to get caught up in all the hype of the holiday! Enjoy the simple things!
I've learned to be grateful, thankful even for what we do have. Our bills are paid and we aren't eating like kings but we aren't starving. I've have been able to enjoy holiday music while baking cookies for my husband and neighbors. We CAN celebrate without having to go broke!
The things I've enjoyed more than anything this year has been being able to watch Christmas classics and specials, taking my time with decorating and being the first in our neighborhood to have our holiday lights on, having the time to decorate our tree in a relaxed atmosphere. I've been able to make cookies and freeze some to enjoy later. We've taken a ride just to enjoy other peoples decorations.
On Christmas morning we'll video chat with our families and watch the kids open their gifts, even being 1200+ miles away. We will relax and spend time with each other, listening to holiday music, enjoying a nice, quiet dinner and having a few cocktails.
We have so much to be thankful for that others don't. Even though we've lost loved ones, we can still feel the love for them in our hearts and can celebrate the holidays we were able to enjoy with them. We have a roof over our heads, a vehicle in the driveway, food in the pantry, clothes on our backs and a soft bed to sleep in.
So many people take these simple things for granted. I vow to enjoy the holidays like this every year. I promise to get involved with the community outreach programs and to help those who don't have the "luxuries" we have. I want to help feed the homeless, bake cookies for our service men and women, visit a nursing home and spend time with someone who may not have anyone else and I want to help with Toys for Tots in any way I can.
From the bottom of my heart, I wish each and every one of you a happy, healthy & safe holiday with your friends and family.
Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!