My day as a homeschooling mom is a lot like running on my treadmill.
I was not bred for running. I wasn't even bred to be athletic. When I was in Elementary school I was on the worst softball team in the section, The Sprouts. In High School I was on the swim team, but I wasn't in a rush so, consequently, I lost most of my swims. Okay, I lost all of them.
As I got older, with a few pregnancies under my belt and the extra weight that comes with them, I took to running.
This was to help my heart be stronger, get the blood pumping better, my muscles to get a good workout. I intersperse this with yoga, so I can give the muscles a good stretch.
But still: my body is not a runner's body.
If you were to look at me, you would agree that I just look maternal. My face is roundish, my body is roundish. When I do flex, you will never see the muscles underneath. I am not a runner, and yet I run.
Last night I was on the treadmill, trying desperately not to look at the timer (4:09min...I can do this...runrunrun...4:15min?! Seriously??) My mind was pacing back and forth between "I want this. I want to run. I want to be stronger. I want to be in better shape. This is a good thing."
"I could be sitting on the couch reading. I could be working on lesson plans. I could be drinking coffee right now. I could be relaxing. Happily."
Instead of relenting to what would be easier, I pressed on. By the end of the run, I advanced half a mile farther than the previous run.
But I was still tired, still out of shape, I hadn't magically lost 15 pounds from one run, and I knew I had to run tomorrow all over again.
I was just thinking of how similar my drive for running was to my drive for homeschooling. It isn't going to be finished in a day, and tomorrow we are going to look for the same pencils we are missing today. We haven't even begun on Calculus or "Lord of the Flies," but that's because we're still in 3rd grade! It is going to be a long, arduous road; but it is going to be worth every effort you make, every day you put into it, every year you complete.