I am not done yet!
I have not been feeling like myself for the last couple of months – for what ever reason I just have not. But today – I pulled up my bootstraps and stood up! I called Weight Watchers and reinstated my account – I had a misunderstanding with my flexible account people and thought they were going to pay directly when in fact it looks like it is a reimbursement issue. So Weight Watchers thought I had quit when in fact I have been adjusting my budget to get it together. I also went in and got weighed this morning. I have lost 4 pounds! I know I always say I had thought for sure that I had gained weight but this time I just knew it because I have not counted one point in probably two months or so. But the efforts from before have paid off and it is just working. I am making better choices in a lot of areas. Today I am hooking up the DVD player and have made an appointment with myself to start working out to my new DVD’s. Since I am looking for a new faithful companion I will start with the one Mom gave me that is more walking oriented. That will help when I do find my new faithful companion because we will be going for a daily walk together. I can not wait and have been feeling sort of lost without a dog in the house. I have recently even thought about getting a cat! Oh good heavens! I am not a cat person for sure but miss the companionship. I did have Cupcake help me pick out an aquarium and I have two guppies, Wiggles and Theodore (better known as Ted) to keep me company. So now when I talk out loud it does not seem strange that I am talking to myself – I am talking to the fish! It is just not the same however so I am back to looking for my faithful companion. I am looking for a Corgi, a miniature Schnauzer or a Shih Tzu. I thought I had found one but the adoption fee was just not in the budget this time. I am not worried something will show up it always does! In the mean time the fish are helping to keep me disciplined and focused and something to take care of. I have to feed them and keep their tank clean – all good for someone who is feeling so lost.
I am feeling more empowered today. Like I said earlier I pulled up my boot straps and stood up – I am ready to move forward again. I have been trying to put together the news letter for theGloryRefugeChurchwhere I am attending now. I have found the program on my computer and have a mock layout ready to go. I am now just waiting for the real information that James and Rita want to put in it. I am planning on calling them this week to get the scoop and be ready to show them the real paper on Friday.
God did not intend for me to feel so lost and to be so not sure of everything. I had to get a handle on that right away. There is no reason for me to feel that way. Thomas is fine! I am the one struggling with who am I now issues. I am his mother always- he is just at the point in his life when he does not need me to mother him! My friend Kristi saw my post yesterday and reminded me of the verse in Philippians. She is an awesome friend! She and her Husband Jerred have The Search and Rescue Ministry. They feed the homeless people here in downtownTulsa. They have not missed a Friday night feeding for several years. They are out there rain, snow, sleet and during the hot summer months as well. The feed them dinner and preach the word over them as well. Kristi has a beautiful voice and sings the praise and worship to usher in the Holy Spirit and then Jerred will have a good word from our Heavenly Father to share with the folks. Kristi is also my friend who comes over and we pray together and cut out coupons together. Anyway, Kristi saw my post yesterday and reminded me about the verse in Philippians 4, verse 8 but I have also included verse 9 as well.
8 And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. 9 Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me—everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you.
These are words I needed to hear – and be reminded that as long as I keep looking up and doing what God has called me to do-I will have God’s peace about me. Nothing is better than that!!
I am praying for you!