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Saturday, September 12, 2009
I gained 3 pounds last week!
oh well...
I didn't want to
go to my Weight Watchers meeting this morning but I knew I had to
because I didn't go last Saturday, I wasn't feeling well. And though I
am not feeling so hot today, (I still have a cold) I knew if I skipped
another week of getting weighed it could prove to be disastrous.
As
I drove to my meeting I kept thinking I should just quit Weight
Watchers. I thought maybe then I could relax, the weight will just drop
off and things will just magically fall into place.
It's so weird
how I seem to go through this reasoning every now and then, or should I
say "magical" thinking? It must be a form of denial.
I mean, why don't I just stick to my program and lose the frigging weight already???
Pondering
this, I looked back at the last time I was relatively successful at
keeping my weight down. It was last winter, January of 2009. I was 6
pounds lighter. Ever since than I have been losing weight or gaining it
back in two or three pound increments.
What does it take to be successful, to lose weight and keep it off?
This morning, Eileen, my Weight Watchers leader told my group, "Quitting is not an option".
Funny how that was exactly what I was thinking of doing this morning and that was one of the first things I heard her say not
to do. She also said, and I am paraphrasing here, everyone cares about
how they look, and when we take care of ourselves that is when we feel
good about ourselves. We stand up straighter, we feel more confident,
and we don't let people use us as a door mat. Then she said, "I demand
to be treated well". Which made me think, why don't I demand that of
myself? Why don't I treat myself well by putting my focus on achieving
this one goal that I know will make me feel good about myself?
Every
time I have succeeded in sticking to my program, my self esteem has
gone up immeasurably and the cool thing is that self esteem naturally
overlaps into other areas of my life.
I remember thinking when I
lost the first fifteen pounds, if I feel this good now, how will I feel
when I achieve my ultimate goal? Perhaps I am just scared to move out
of my comfort zone?
I think it might be time for me to do some fire
walking. In other words, I need to move out of my complacency or fear
or whatever, and commit to taking the actions I need to take.
I need
to do this because I really want to lose 18 pounds by November 12th.And
I can't be afraid to say that just because I am afraid I won't be able
to do it.
So, thanks Eileen, for saying the things I needed to hear.
