When Mom Wants to Run Away

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Well, for starters, I'd be a single mother come January. But besides that, it caused me to want to really think about who I've become and how I got here.

I'm not the perfect mother who can miraculously pull amazing learning experiences from a hat. I'm not the successful working woman I've always wanted to be. Instead, I often feel like I'm a mediocre wife and mother just going through life; surviving one day at a time, but not really living or taking advantage of the life God has given me.

Obviously, I won't run away. I love my husband and I love my son. I also couldn't be more excited (and scared) about this miracle that's about to come into our lives, but I need to find a way to once again discover who I am. But this time, I have to find out who I am with all these limitations. How do you discover talents and skills when you don't have the time to learn a new craft? How do you learn new interests or hobbies when there's a child tagging along with you everywhere you go?

Or is that the point of being a mother? Giving up yourself for the life of others: no interests, no talents, no time.

I don't think I can accept that.


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