I Will Call You Sparrow (Friend's Suicide)


"S"... I will call you Sparrow, you are a sparrow with a wounded wing. For a while, you shared your life with us, and we learned that you had more than a finite mind. You were graceful, and God had blessed you with soft beauty, and we (your friends) came to understand there was a relentless need buried deep within you. Sparrow, your intellect was superior, though your spirit was fragile like tissue paper, so prone to tear, but God kept you under His wing and sheltered you.

I sometime think you were that sparrow David, in his distress, spoke of in the Psalms, "I watched, and I am as a sparrow alone upon a rooftop." Oh if you could have dwelt more on God's promising words "Two sparrows are worth only a penny, yet your Father knows when any one of them falls ~You are worth more than sparrows." He proved himself over and over. Did you forget?

Sparrow, you had soared the heavens in life's short moments and rode on the high currents of love. A full life and your chosen path were dashed to the ground by the chance of an ill wind, and a hardened heart. At times hope would faintly stir and we would see you rise and take flight again. Even so you always had a passion for a world that no longer was, or never had been. It was a concept that robbed you of joy, and shredded your inner being causing inconsolable grief. One day Sparrow, you flew with your broken spirit into a cage of your own making, and in your heart you thought this was escape.

Our Holy Bible says nothing can separate us (not even ourselves) from the one in whom we place our trust. Sparrow you had shown by your words and actions that you knew and loved your savior. You searched the scriptures and learned from them, but your grip slipped and the excruciating heart ache, fear, and scrambled emotions caught up and overtook you like a wrathful storm.

Nothing that you did can cause your Savior not to love you, and now that love will be expressed face to face. You, Sparrow chose the timing but in His forgiveness, He will give you the eternal comfort you have longed for all of your life. The battle between your mind and emotions, your belief and your soul is over. Now be at ease in His presence, you are free to fly.

Rest well sweet Sparrow... "Sam."



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