Is it a Mid-Life Crisis or a New Calling?

I’ve been in a funk for the last
week or so. Something has just been unsettled in my soul, and I hadn’t
been able to identify it. Until today. I had anticipated heavy
involvement in my kids’ schools this year, but it hasn’t turned out
that way and they are doing just fine without me underfoot every day.
My younger two, who attend a “university format” school, go to classes
Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and are home doing lessons with me on
Tuesday- Thursday. Next year, we just learned, the school will change
to a traditional 5 day a week format. So, after 15 years of being a
stay at home mom, I will have no one to stay at home with. With
only four years until we begin footing college tuition bills, an
income-producing opportunity would certainly be a prudent use of that
time. However, as is true for many of us, the jobs for which my college
degrees prepared me are not necessarily the ones I desire at this stage
of my life. So, I’ve been in this funk - the what do I want to do with
the rest of my life blues.

The one thing that excites me regularly is writing my blog; it has
filled a part of my soul that I didn’t know was empty. Putting thoughts
into words and creating beautiful spaces has stirred up a surprisingly
intense passion. I have always enjoyed being around creative people but
never considered myself to be one of them. Recently reading The Creative Call,
I sensed God telling me that He sees me as a writer. Me? A writer? With
no journalism or English degree? And writers fall into that “starving
artist” category - not exactly a lucrative career to pave the way for
three kids in college!

When I started writing my blog it was, in my mind, to journal our
family’s transition into middle and high school. However, God had other
plans for it, which I am just beginning to discover. Since its
inception, He has been telling me, “One step at a time; I’m only giving
you one step. When you follow that one, you get the next one.” Me, the
planner, the map -my- life- out- for- the- next- six- years person.
It’s making me crazy. It’s making me nervous. It’s making me rely on my
daily prayer time to be sure I get that next step.

Oh, me of little faith. It only takes a day or two of silence for me
to doubt what I’ve heard. So, this morning, I got up and prayed. “I
don’t see how you’re going to use my blog to make me a writer,” I
told Him. Slightly disgusted with the lack of an answer to my prayer, I
decided to check my e-mail. There, in my inbox, was an invitation to
post one of my articles in an online women’s magazine and possibly to
write several more articles for them in the future. Sheepishly, I
confessed that once again, I was running ahead of God. Oh, me of little
faith. He who can make an oak tree from an acorn can surely make a
writer out of me.

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