It’s greater than feelings
“It’s 5pm! YES!” Another day of work ended and I was elated. It was a long and packed day but the good Lord brought me through it. I began packing up and realized that I had class tonight. Even worse, it’s my Theological Survey class which is a bit challenging. “But I’m soo tired. I can barely keep my eyes open.” I said to myself. “Can’t I just skip tonight? I’ll make it up.”
I finally came to my senses and decided to go to class. We covered so many topics and to my amazement I was catching on. Then the time came for the exam. Yes I was willing to pass on the exam and make it up. I looked at the clock and it was 6:30pm. I had an hour to complete the exam. “Can I last an hour? Will I make it? Am I in the right state to take an exam?” All of these questions went through my mind. I said “Lord, help me through this. I promised you I would follow through with your call on my life and now I need your help to get through.”
I clicked on the module (yes, we get computerized exams) and began the exam. I must admit some of the questions had me second guessing myself. At 7:20pm, I submitted my exam and I am pleased to say that I scored a 94 on the exam. (I still feel those trick questions were unfair..lol)
As I sat there looking at the score, I wondered how did I manage to make it through another 2 and 1/2 hours when I could barely keep my eyes open before. It then dawned on me that God heard my plea and gave me the strength I needed to make it through. Although I didn’t feel like attending class or taking an exam, I remembered my commitment to God and asked Him to help me keep it by seeing me through this.
Sometimes, you won’t feel like doing the things you must do, but you must. This morning I didn’t feel like getting up and going to work, but I must. I realized that I had trainings to do and projects to complete. Therefore, despite how I was feeling, I am on the train headed to work. This is the same sense of responsibility we should have in the matters of the Lord.
We will have days where we don’t feel like reading the Word, praying or ministering. It is in those times that we need to ask God to help us make it through. Our relationship with God and our ministry for Him is greater than our feelings. Can a doctor decide not to treat patients? Can a nurse decide not to dispense prescribed meds? Can a mother decide to no longer feed her child? Can a pastor decide to no longer speak for God? These things are inevitable. These individuals are called to do what they do and the same applies to you.
Imagine if God dealt wih us by how we make him feel? WE’D BE DONE FOR!
When God gives you a task to fulfill, mission to accomplish or goal to attain, you must realize that these things are greater than your feelings. They are part of God’s master plan. I was tired from a long days work, but God set a goal for me and I was not about to let Him down. I knew I couldn’t make it on my own, but I also knew that if I asked Him to help me, He will come through.
You may be going through a “I don’t feel like doing this” moment or “I can’t take this anymore” moment. It is in these moments that I am reminded of one of my favorite songs (Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir rendition),
I will lift up mine eyes to the hills
From whence cometh my help
My help cometh from the Lord
The Lord Which made heaven and earth
He said, He will not suffer thy foot; thy foot to be moved
The Lord Which keepeth thee
He will not slumber nor sleep
For the Lord is thy keeper
The Lord is thy shade upon thy right hand
Upon thy right hand
For the sun shall not smite thee by day
Nor the moon by night
He shall preserve thy soul
Even forever more
All of my help
Cometh from the Lord
When you don’t feel like holding on, when you don’t feel like doing what God has called you to do, remember it is not about your feelings; it is about God. Seek Him out and ask Him to help you through. You will be amazed what you will accomplish when God helps you through.
My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. Psalm 121:2
I am having a hard time holding on. Frankly, Lord I don’t feel like doing this any longer. I need your help to get through this. I know that this feeling is just the enemy trying to sidetrack me. So Lord, please help me to make it and when I can no longer take it, carry me through it. I trust you Lord and I commit my feelings to you to mold into a determination to fulfill your mission for my life and……”