It's all about choices...do you love the one your with?

By Barbara Ward Finneran -- "As I lay down at night and banish the chaos from my mind, the background thoughts of you grow louder in my head. Catching my breath I wonder how someone who is consistently my last thought at night, and so often my first one in the morning, can just be meant to be fantasies and wishes.

Closing my eyes tighter I try to chase the torture from my mind. The heart wins out as I drift to a world where we can exist as one, blessing and cursing the dreams.  Caught between the moment of knowing it's wrong and knowing it can't be wrong."

Fact? Fiction? Facebook feeling? Memory? A chance crossing of paths with an old flame?

Contemplating missed opportunity. Needing a "fix". Toying with inviting trouble into my life, just because it feels good.  Maybe, better than I have felt in a long time.  Perhaps even manufacturing or magnifying troubles in my “real” relationship to justify the all consuming what if.

Who hasn't been there? Are you being honest with yourself if you say, "Not Me".

Marriage and monogamy is a choice.  Love is a choice.  As time passes it’s not always a surge of passion.  Making a commitment doesn't mean that we found your soulmate. It means we've made a choice.  A promise.  A commitment.  

It doesn't always mean we choose right or that adjustments don't have to be made.  We must embrace our choices. Get to a place where we can celebrate them.  They can make us feel really happy or really sad.  Amazingly the two emotions are so aligned - much like love and hate - much like relationships.  So choose.  Choose to be happy!  Celebrate the choice you made.  

On my wedding day I made promises.  Each anniversary fulfills those promises.  In life it’s important to make commitments, but I must remember the value of keeping the promises made.  Love is the sum of choices, the strength of commitments, the ties that bind us together. Love yourself enough to choose, and then, love the one you’re with...