It's my party, I'll attend if I want to...?

I am an extremely vivid dreamer and I remember most of them. It’s probably part of why it’s so hard to wake up, as my dreams are often really fun and entertaining. My dreams are also not very subtle. My subconscious likes to make it really obvious to me whats up. For example, the dream I had yesterday where Jack Black stole my family inheritance from China ( don’t ask me why Jack Black and China, all I’ve got is that I watched Kung Fu Panda recently) probably has something to do with feeling like my financial power has been stripped from me as I wait for others to respond to my marketing, phone calls, emails, ect.

Anyhow, this is all to set up last nights/this morning’s dream and it’s interpretation. I was in that weird
half -sleep state where you are semi-aware of what is going on around you, but you are still dreaming. I had spent the last night at a friends house after a rock show, and so I was aware of him waking up and showering and that eventually he would have to leave for work and kick me out. In my dream, he had already woken me up and it was the day of my 25th Birthday. My good friend had a really fun day planned for me and was encouraging me to play hookie with her but I was convinced that there was no way I was going to get out of going to high school (yes high school), and was really upset by it. Any how, my parent’s dropped me off at the high school and I was stressing out about how to get away when suddenly it occurs to me that I haven’t had to go to high school in a really REALLY long time. Hallelujah I’m free! Right? No.

I figure it must be that I have to go to work, and I’m stressed out about what time I need to be there. I can’t find my schedule anywhere, but luckily the schedule is posted online. So I’m looking at the website but everything is blurry and I’m clicking all over the place to try to get the screen to focus, which some how calls a bunch of Egyptian ninjas in to my room (yes, ninjas, don’t question my subconscious) who reveal they are actors contracted by the company when all of a sudden I realize I haven’t had a day job in quite some time and don’t actually have any commitments that are keeping me from having my fun day…still even after this revelation in my dream I manage to conjure up difficulty after difficulty.

So what’s the lesson? That I’m creating the blocks that keep me from my own happiness, and that even more importantly all of these challenges are illusions. When I choose to believe in difficulty and frustration then I create it in my life. Instead, today I choose to party.

What do you do that keeps you from being happy? What are the biggest challenges that come up time and time again to freak you out? Do you believe that happiness can be as simple and making the choice to show up?

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