June 5, 2009
Jen @ www.afterthealter.com
I always am amazed at where a year will take you. How many journeys you get to go on and how many life experiences you get to have. This past year I have been through a lot. My second year of marriage took me to places that I never thought I’d go, and if I had to put a finger on it, it all began on June 5 2009.
I woke up on that day like any other. The Captain and I hadn’t been really “trying” to have a baby, but I had a bachelorette party that weekend and since I am a nut I decided to take a home pregnancy test to be sure I WASN’T pregnant so I could go and party it up with a free conscience. I waited till Captain Awesome went to work because he always thought I was crazy to test early, and I didn’t want to deal with that. Plus I thought it would be negative and I would go on with my day. Well that wasn’t the case. The test came up with the words PREGNANT. I sat on the floor in my home office chanting the words “oh my god, oh my god”. I honestly couldn’t believe it was real. Didn’t it take months for it to actually work? Wasn’t I destined to at least TRY throughout the summer? The answer was NO! It was happening now. So I cried tears of joy.
I had always wanted to tell The Captain that we were pregnant in a fun way. I never bought anything in advance as to not jinx things, so I had to scramble to come up with something because I couldn’t keep this secret very long. So since it was close to Father’s Day I went out and bought a Father’s day card, and put the positive test inside of it so that when he opened it he would see. (don’t worry I cleaned it!) I had to take a drive to go pick up a portable navigation system, and I used that as an excuse to go to Captain Awesome’s work. I told him I wanted to show it to him. So when he came out and got in the car I gave him the card. He opened it…stared confused and I smiled. His first reaction? “I thought you told me this could take months!” lol he was as shocked as I was. We had a secret that just the two of us knew and we were both so excited.
It’s funny how I remember every minute of that day. I can play it all back in my head. How could I have possibly known it would’ve gone so terribly wrong? Now, 1 year later, I am over 12 weeks pregnant again. The whole journey was/is a whole lesson in the fact that we really have no control. That we can’t plan our life’s path in advance, and that life has a funny way of surprising you in both good and bad ways.
And you know what? If you are going through what I went through I promise that the joy of being pregnant again takes away most of the pain of the past. I am positive that it will all be worth it in the end, and that we all end up exactly where we are supposed to. Trust me, that I did not know that as I was going through it. But as we come up to June 5th yet again, I am left to reflect on it all, and to do that you have to think back to where the journey began. June 5 2009. Let’s just all hope that as June 14th rolls around, and my 3rd year of marriage begins, that with it comes wonderful and new experiences with our new little miracle Pooh bear.