Letters Home - May 2nd 1993
My God, I just came to a weird realization. Something just clicked! Remember when you used to tell me that I was really mean and nasty at home but to everyone else I was really nice and cheerful? Well, check this out! Emiri is a person who (especially lately) will literally stomp around the house and slam doors and act perfectly miserable and cranky and like she is just mean and nasty. Then she gets on the phone all happy and nice and laughing. When she is in public she is all nice to everyone – but to me – she warns me that she’s in a bad mood and don’t mess with her. It pisses me off that she can be absolutely rude to me and come alive when outside people come into the picture. I almost want to tell people, “No she’s really not that nice!”
My point is, I realize how I’ve acted in the past, and she has shown me in more ways than one. If she feels fat and cannot find anything to wear, she gets all pissed at me and will pick a fight. God it drives me nuts – but I really see how I was – in her! I guess it’s good. It shows me how never to act!! I also understand how you felt when I did that shit! It’s strange how people go through similar phases, but at different times.
I’m going to bed. I’ll write more tomorrow...
Hi, I’m back. It’s now 6:15 am. They just played KD Lang on the radio! Oh my god – it reminded me of the restaurant so much I almost got up and turned it off. I hate when that happens!
I had a dream last night that I got a letter from you! I also had a dream last night that we were staying in a hotel for my 16th Birthday and I was riding up the elevator with Cody and Griffin walked in and I hugged him right when he came in! Then he looked at Cody and said, “Uncomfortable!” Isn’t that funny!
Well, I better get ready for school. I’ll write later…
Hi, I’m back! It’s 9:15pm I’m watching Northern Exposure. I love it and never miss it now!
GOD I MISS HOME BAD!! WATCHING NORTHERN IS HARSH!! I WOULD KILL TO DRIVE THROUGH TOWN AND JUST LOOK FROM ONE SIDE OF THE STREET TO THE NEXT!
I LOVE AND MISS YOU - WRITE SOON!
Give my little bro a huge hug and smooch!