I've been lately asking the universe for changes. Changes outside - more movement, excitement, aliveness - and changes inside me. I've been working on shining light on some of the beliefs which keep me away from the outside changes i wish to see, so i can transform these same beliefs and move on.

Since then, i can feel change is happening. Nothing that could be seen on the outside, but i feel i am slowly starting to learn to manage many things at the same time, something which have been sucking energy out of me for years.

I am getting to realize that what i want is to be Productive, and Wise at the same time. Take actions, but stay loose and confident that all will fall in place, even without me watching over every details.

I am learning that if i can trust the force - the one which i can see in action in nature, the one which is taking care of everything everyday without any human noticing - this trust will be one of my best investments in life. The Jedi knew it.

I now look at my agenda and can see that there's much going on (hence the slow posting lately), yet i dont feel like a headless running chick as i would usually do. I see i can do so much, but i'm learning to let go.

It is my wish not to waste my energy at trying to have everything in control - and believe me, this is the major shift i am going through - taking action towards what i want, and at some point just relax and let go because i can't have my hands on everything, i cant have control over other people's thoughts, and i cant match the clock's spinning.

I must rely that while i take my time to be fully into the fun parts of what i do, working or in the bathtub, the universe is taking care of the details, watching over me, preparing the road so i can move on. The good news is, it can do the same for you.

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I am m-c, an artist, consultant and communicator. I am interested in people, life, technology, and the creative potential of web publishing tools. I run meïdia, a creative studio, Creacamp, a gathering about arts, craft and technology for girls, and i wrote a book.

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