Lately I’ve just been way too stretched. I recognize it and I’m taking steps to ease the chaos. Some days I feel like I’m on the brink of something really big. Something really good for me. Other days, thoughts of change scare and overwhelm me. My summer has continued to be incredibly busy. I miss blogging and have so many topic ideas in my head. So thank you to those of you reading still and waiting for my life to ease up a bit. I hope to be writing more soon.
Lately I’ve been connecting with the “real” me. I’m not sure how it is for others, but prior to going to college I had a lot of hobbies, pursuits, dreams and interests. College was a lot of fun but also a lot of work. Between classes, internships, extracurricular activities and working part-time, it was non-stop. A week after graduation I started my full-time career. I’ve never had a break between jobs. I’ve been working for 6 years now and I’ve only taken a full week off one time — for our honeymoon.
I’ve been really caught in the rat race. Thinking about the future, the next day, and not living in the present. I’ve been out of touch with myself and who I really am. It’s been great to reconnect with old friends remind me of these things. I’m so thankful for people who have been in my life 10 years or more. They know me and can help me remind me of what’s important when I feel lost.
Gardening has been an amazing reconnection to my old self. In addition, over the past few months I have retrieved boxes of my belongings from my childhood home. I forgot how many crafts I used to do. Crochet, embroidery, friendship bracelets, beading, painting, sewing, macrame. The list goes on. Why did I stop these hobbies? I’ve been too “busy” with life and that rat race.
So in addition to gardening I started a new craft hobby — creating beach glass jewelry and art. I’m in the beginning stages of collecting pieces and sketching out designs, but I’m really excited to pursue a new craft. It feels good. It feels like I’m becoming me again.