Jennifer Watson

Wife, daughter, sister, friend. Adoptive mom. Owned by a cranky, elderly feline. Long-time blogger, artist, writer. Student of Buddhism. Not exactly a domestic goddess.  Trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.

Transracial Adoption: One of these things is not like the other...

An interesting incident from January 2012 when I was still a new mom...We are in line at the grocery store, my five month-old daughter sound asleep in her baby carrier on the cart and me watching the woman in front of us unloading her cart's contents onto the belt.  The woman is blonde, blue-eyed, petite, and pretty. The little boy standing next to her - probably five years-old or so - has to be her son because he looks exactly like her. He is adorable. I can't help staring at him....more

I'm Back (and Conversations with Esme...)

It's hard for me to believe that my amazing girl is almost three years old.And that I haven't written on this blog for more than two years. What the heck happened???Motherhood.That's what happened....more

She comes home...part 8

Thanks for sharing your journey! My husband and I are just starting the adoption process and ...more

She comes home...part 7

"I don't know how you did that! Taking care of a newborn all by yourself in a hotel room! I couldn't have done it."Numerous people express these sentiments to me upon our return home with Esme."Well...I didn't really have a choice," I reply.I'm sure before all of this craziness happened if someone had told me that I'd be spending 10 days with an infant in a hotel room, the majority of those ten days alone with her, I probably would have fainted at the prospect.Fainted dead away....more
 @SunbonnetSmart.com Thanks for coming back for another visit, Robin. Glad you liked the post. ...more

Hello and Goodbye: The Bittersweet Enormity of Adoption

"How are you?" I ask K. "I'm OK," she says looking at me and then back at the TV. "I'm OK." Again, I wonder if she is trying to convince me or herself that she truly is OK. "Are you sure?" She nods her head. I try one last time. One last time I'll say it and then there's no going back for either of us. "There's still time to change your mind," I say. The statement...a question really...hangs in the air between us for a minute before K says, "No. I'm OK. I'm OK."...more
Wow, you had me in tears. Congrats to you and Chris and I love Esme Louisa's name. May the Lord ...more

She comes home...part 5

"I can't get her to wake up to eat," I say quietly to the night nurse, B. "She is sleeping so deeply. I've tried everything, but she just won't wake up....more
 @jennifer.watson The suspense is killing me! I can't wait until you both make it home :)more

She comes home...part 4

"Wow..." I say softly to the bundle in my lap, "you are a very tiny little person,"The very first thing I ever say to my daughter.I'm sitting on the low, pink couch next to K's bed. The baby lays along the length of my thighs. One of my hands gently cups the back of her head (her little head barely filling the palm of my hand at all) while my other hand rests gently on her tummy. My hand covers her entire body she is so little (I learn later that she is 5 pounds 9 ounces...pretty much the smallest a newborn baby can be without needing to spend some time in the NICU.)...more
 @victorias_view Oh Victoria, it was crazy hard. Most difficult thing that I've ever done. I ...more

She comes home...part 3

I don't understand how airplanes work....more
 @victorias_view Ah, Victoria - as always, thanks for reading and commenting. you're so very ...more

She comes home...part 2

 Tuesday, August 30, 2011. Late evening.The extra-large purple LL Bean duffel bag on wheels is sitting in the nursery where it has remained  (fully packed with all things newborn baby....diapers, onesies, swaddling blankets, pacifiers, car seat base, etc.) since early March. Since our other adoption fell through.Chris and I never had the heart to unpack the carefully packed duffel bag once we found out that we would not be going to Arizona on March 11 to meet the little baby we thought and hoped would be joining our family....more
 @nikonMom Thanks so much for stopping by and taking the time to not only read the post, but to ...more

She comes home...part 1

It's 2:37 a.m. and before our 5 week-old daughter can wake up her daddy with more "I'm hungry!" cries, I scoop her up out of her bed-top co-sleeper and whisk her off to the nursery for a bottle....more