Natalie Green

My name is Natalie, and I am 28 years old.

I have been  married for nearly seven years to my best friend. We reside in Tennessee with and have recently gone from a family of two to a family of three when our baby daughter Nellie Rose was born January 20, 2010!

My Story

My husband and I found out we were expecting our first child in December of 2007. This child was very much planned, and we received the news with elation and joy. Unfortunately our little one was not meant for this world and we lost our "green bean" on December 22nd, 2007. The 21 days that I was pregnant with my "green bean" were the best of my life.

In June of 2008 we decided we were ready to try again, and try we did. We had been trying for nearly a year without success, when we decided to stop trying so hard and let it happen.

That was much easier said than done when you have been living your life in two-week increments, analyzing your body for potential early pregnancy symptoms and sticking your fingers up your you-know-what to see if your cervix has any telltale signs of pregnancy yet. However, for my sanity and the sanity of my dear husband, we tried what people had been annoyingly insistent upon telling us:

Relax and it will happen.

And ya know what? For us, it flipping worked. May 9th, 2009 I found myself staring at the dry end of a positive pregnancy test in disbelief. The one cycle that we weren't trying is the cycle that we caught the egg. That egg is now an hilarious, energetic 2 year old named Nellie Rose. She loves princesses AND the Avengers.

In December of 2011, my mother very suddenly fell ill. Within the course of a week, I went from a woman with a complicated relationship with her mother, to a woman having to make the decision to put her mother into hospice, to a woman without a mother at all. She died three days after Christmas, and it turned my life inside out. 

I blog about a lot of things. I blog about my kid, I blog about my life, I blog about pointless stuff that I find amusing, and I blog about the process of letting go of all the harm my mother did to me emotionally in the past and dealing with the experience of her death. 

Welcome to my life. 

 

Should Parents Argue in Private, Or is a Little Conflict Beneficial?

My husband and I were raised completely differently. Not just because I was raised in Chicago and he in the South, but our family dynamics were pretty much polar opposites. His parents were married before they graduated high school, and are still married today.  My parents were married in their mid-twenties and by the time I was 13 they were divorced. Josh’s family dynamic is generally a very healthy one… And I come from a broken home. Shattered is a better term for it, really. I will write more about that in a later post....more

Quartet Practice with a Toddler

My quartet, Route 41, is singing on the news in two weeks. We are also microphone testers for our regional Young Women in Harmony competition, which is in about three weeks, so today we decided to get together and practice a new song we’ve been working on....more

What Is Motherhood?

When we were struggling to conceive after our miscarriage, I would often dream of what it’d be like to be a mother. I imagined the day that I finally held my child – my flesh and blood – in my arms, and in my dreams it felt like heaven. Like utter peace. I would sit around and imagine rocking my sweet baby to sleep, singing that little bundle into a land of sweet dreams. I’d picture us strolling around the mall or taking a walk outside. I assumed that the second my child entered the world screaming, I would feel like a mother....more

From my own experience, the thing about motherhood is that even when I don't feel like being in ...more

The Battle of the {Netflix} Queue

My husband and I love movies. We are what you would call movie buffs. We will give pretty much any movie a chance. Our likes range from Oscar-winning dramas to musicals (okay, that’s me and not my husband) to campy movies like Pirhana (which was AWESOMMMEEE). There are movies that we disagree on, of course. Joshua doesn’t like musicals and I don’t like comic book cartoons, cheesy 80s guys movies (Road Warrior = worst ever) or Alexander, which happens to be one of Josh’s favorite movies. Oliver Stone can just get the eff off my Netflix queue and movie shelf FOREVER....more

When You're Here, You're Family. Unless You Crap Your Pants.

After a quick trip to the pediatrician's office due to some vomiting, it was determined that Nellie might have a slight stomach bug.  We brought her home for a nap and I decided to stay home from work to be with my family. When she woke up, she was acting fine & hadn't thrown up in hours so we decided to go see about a used car. After driving 30 minutes we discovered that the car was a POS so we left. We decided to stop at Jason's Deli for lunch....more

Losing My Mind (and my Debit Card)

This morning, I almost lost my mind....more

She's Got..

My friend Michelle blogged recently about how her son Liam has sprouted this little personality, seemingly overnight. I got to thinking about Nellie and how her personality has evolved and emerged in the last few months. I had always anticipated her as being mellow and easy-going because she was never very active in the womb. To an extent, I was right. When we're out with her she just sits back and watches the world....more