Nikki

I'm a 26 year old living in the southern suburbs of Chicago.  I work in special education, and am considering a new career path in alternative psychology.  I am moved by nature, colors, and silence.  I appreciate all forms of music.  I am an adventure seeker at heart and get a thrill out of trying new things.  I do not believe in failure or defeat.  I think the human spirit is the most remarkable and resilient thing around.  I can find beauty in anything, and find the darkest days are the most incredible.  I truly believe that life is a journey that we have both absolute, and no control over.  I believe that each of us has a path that we will follow and we will all eventually end up exactly where we were supposed to be.

I am healing from a 16 year struggle with an eating disorder and childhood abuse.  I do not believe in recovery anymore, which I know is quite odd, but rather healing.  I do not believe that I am a flawed person trying to recover from that flaw, but a hurt person trying to heal from that pain.  I believe that we all have an innate strength that makes us beautiful and worthy just as we are.  I believe in and appreciate the journey, and all of its 
exhilirating twists and turns.



Choices

"There are two primary choices in life: to accept conditions as they exist, or accept the responsibility for changing them." Denis WaitleyThis is not going to be a popular entry, and I'm alright with that. ...more

Tomorrow, I want to be 5.

“I've heard that it's possible to grow up - I've just never met anyone who's actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don't go our way, we whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark, we look for comfort where we can find it, and we hope - against all logic, against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope...” Meredith Grey...more

Great Expectations

"Faith is not about believing but about letting go of beliefs. Faith does not hope and pray for things to be different sometime in the future. Faith is the still heart that refuses nothing, our willingness ... to trust things as they are."Maria Housden...more

Running to myself

I have spent 16 very long and painful years running from myself.  Running from  the things I am and the things I thought I was. I have spent those years locked in a struggle with myself.  Trying to avoid thinking, feeling, and being. ...more

What an amazing post to share. Very inspiring to see such confidence in self and willingness to ...more

Life outside the box

"Do not resist events that move you out of your comfort zone, especially when your comfort zone was not all that comfortable." -Alan Cohen I used to live inside a box.  It was a comfortable box, small, and secure.  Every day was exactly the same.  Get up, run, scale, run, change clothes, too fat, change again, scale, shower, change, run, on and on.  Rinse, repeat. I hated it, but it was comfortable and I knew it well. ...more

A Healthy Dose of Hope

Each morning, I begin my day by reflecting.  I find it brings my life into prospective and makes the seemingly insurmountable tasks of daily life seem trivial.  ...more

Funny the way it is

Every morning, I wake up and think the same thing "I am so grateful for this day."  I realize this is a rather unsual thought for a 26 year old these days, but it is so very true.  I think of the life I had one year ago, and the life I have now, and I am in awe of life and the changes it can bring.I should back up; and tell you who I am and what I'm about....more

I don't think that it's a funny way to start the day at all. I think it's a great way and one ...more