Niche Witch

I am The Niche Witch. I have given myself this Internet name to protect the innocent. You will understand the meaning behind all this in my writing. My intentions at the time I wrote this was to start a blog and tell my story. I didn't know what that story was until about May 2012. I am a sexual abuse survivor that has overcome 35 years of hell. I was faced with a life decision. I had to evaluate myself to the core. I asked myself, "Why do I work so hard and the results still leave me depressed, anxious, self loathing and questioning my existence. By confronting all my darkest secrets, I was able to finally free myself from my abuser. My blog was a way for me to rid myself of these evils. I intended to start a social network for SAHM's, that for whatever reason, had no choice but to stay home. My husband is an amazing father and vigilant when it comes to our family. He works himself to the bone, yet he does not receive the respect and income he has truly deserves. I needed to find a job from home. I needed to ease his pain. Me being a blogger that made money from the blog would be perfect for me! I created the website myself, taught myself HTML basics, web design and of course brushed up on my writing skills. I apologize ahead of time for poor grammar and punctuation...sorry! Anywho... About me,, I am 40 years old and live in Phx Az. I am married to my soul mate. I have 3 children that I love with my heart and soul. They all need undivided attention all day! I love these little people as big as the sky. I was born in California. I resided in Seattle till I was 6. Moved to Arizona after my parents divorced. I have moved 23times in my life so far if that's any clue to my stability issues! I was placed in foster care when I was born for 30 days. I was adopted by an angel from God who was bound to my abuser by marriage. I was diagnosed with Juvenile Rheumatoid Athritis at the age of 7. I have been battling depression for years. I had such a complex puzzle of esteem issues, but then again who really is happy with their ass as they reach the ripe old age of 40? I was actually mortified by the reflection in the mirror! But I can tell you this, I no longer hate myself. I have come to the conclusion that there is a reason for everything. I found the reason in God. He has taken away my fears, pain, and suffering and now as a result, I am a better mother, wife, lover, daughter, sister and friend. "In all of us there is a hunger, marrow-deep, to know our heritage, to know who we are -- and where we come from. Without this enriching knowledge, there is a hollow yearning, there is the most disquieting --- loneliness. ~ Alex Haley ~ Roots

Hell On Earth! I'm about over it...

After yet another 3 days in bed, I awoke pissed off and with a Big Ol F$ck U for Obama and his brilliant ideas. "The tax increases that remain on the books will cost taxpayers more than $675 billion over the next ten years. Chief among these will be the sales tax on the purchase of health insurance, totaling $101.7 billion, and making it larger than all the other industry-specific taxes combined".(Forbes) How am I going to live another year in this man made Hell? I have spent over $2000 in medical bills the past two months and our savings is gone! Obama can suck a rock!...more

What Are You Thankful For?

November 20th 2012 ...more

Do You Have The Power To Forgive?

These past couple months have been a living hell for me and my family. It must end and me being the one to end it seems to be the only way out. I prayed to God for a final goodbye to my past and he spoke loud and clear. I am going to share with you my final words and how to start a new beginning. Following is part of a letter I wrote to the pitiful man who claimed to be my father. I am free! Amen!!! I am writing this letter since hearing that you would like to see us and the kids. There are things I need to hear myself say to you for they will be the last of me you will ever have....more

God Gave Me A Bushel Of Lemons!

Life handed me a bushel of lemons and I wanted to share my wealth. Unfortunately, due to some individuals behavior I have decided to squeeze it right in their eye! I went into a local grocery store that was started by someone named Albert and his sons. My intent was to purchase things for a friend of mine. During my cruise about a month ago, I met a man that has dedicated his life to Christ and helping the less fortunate. I mistakenly went into this store last week to buy some things for a Church that helps the homeless and rehabilitates individuals....more

They're Coming to Take Me Away, Ha-Haaa

Remember when you ran away and I got on my knees and begged you not to leave because I'd go berserk?? Well... You left me anyhow and then the days got worse and worse and now you see I've gone completely out of my mind.. And.. They're coming to take me away, ha-haaa!! They're coming to take me away, ho-ho, hee-hee, ha-haaa To the funny farm. Where life is beautiful all the time and I'll be happy to see those nice young men in their clean white coats and they're coming to take me away, ha-haaa!!!!! You thought it was a joke and so you laughed, you laughed when I had said ...more

The Truth Shall Set You Free

What comes around goes around. Everything you do sends a message out into the universe. Brace yourself, this digs a little deep! Imagine your skin as an intricate puzzle with nooks and crannies a muck. Now imagine the air that surrounds you fitting very snugly with your puzzle. Now you are at the grocery store, tired from the worst day ever known to mankind. The lady in front of you is a crazy couponer, the register overloads... 20 minutes later you are still in line!!!! You, the very normally cool cat you are thinks out loud, " Are you frickin kidding me!!". ...more

Who Is The Niche Witch?

Good Morning! It's 4:00 am, house is quiet, coffee is brewing and I am loving every minute of it. On the couch with my trusty iPad and favorite blankly, my journey begins. As I am typing my body is going flippin crazy on me. My heart is racing, butterflies, and my hands are sweaty. There is an excitement in the air that I have never felt before. On one hand I could shit my pants that this is the avenue I am choosing to vindicate myself. On the other hand I am proud of myself for taking the leap. I see it like this..the cord of the vacuum has a knot in it....more

The Niche Witch

To Readers- this is a very rough, raw unedited version of my diary. TRIGGERS are present so be cautious, but be proactive in your healing. My flashbacks that I have experienced evoked an emotion that I was very familiar with, complete and utter terror! Flashbacks may be very painful, but I assure you that by confronting them and telling yourself you are not that person anymore, you are beautiful, strong, and by God as my witness no one will ever do that to me again!! You are confronting your past so you can move forward. Healing is about change and confronting that devil head on. ...more
Please read my post about sexual abuse. I am an adult survivor, and swear to God as my witness, ...more