Hi. I am a 36 year old wife and mother of 3 . I am a native of Florida and I still live in the same town I was born in. That’s right! A real Floridian. On January 23, 2007 my entire life, as I knew it had changed in an instant. My seemingly wonderful, coveted life came to a halt when I was arrested and facing 25 years in prison for drug trafficking and prescription fraud. This is a chronicle of my journey through drug addiction, incarceration and the search for happiness. I write this from the journals I kept. I am not sure why I am putting all my dirty laundry out in the open. I just feel like I need to do this. Mainly for myself. Recently, I unexpectedly lost mother. She was only 55 years old and at one time she was my best and only friend. I am going through a bit of a hard time and this is my attempt to pull myself out of the depression hole that I slowly feel myself sinking into.  Over time I have lost the sense of accomplishment and well being that I felt while I was incarcerated. I know it sounds odd but I had such an incredible journey of self realization and peace that I want to relive my experience through my journals and writings.  I am not a writer. This is my journal.