nelle douvlle

If someone asks me about my life, I can write a book. If someone asks me to write a brief bio, I’ll sit here and agonise over its construction, which is where I am right now, writing something up for BlogHer.

The basics. I've been blogging for 8 years, a member of BlogHer for 7 (despite what the system says) I’m fifty-eight years old and counting (slowly), a parent of two wonderful adult daughters, a new grandparent of a beautiful boy, unemployed and returning to school, a volunteer for Planned Parenthood of Northern New England, an aspiring creative writer, and a recovering dysfunctional. Reading, music, online participation, being silly, and sports are things that occupy my time. Although I’ve not done them in years now, I love cross country skiing and sailing. My true passion, what occupies most of my time is as an aspiring writer of fiction.

That recovering dysfunctional sounds humorous, and I do joke about it because if I don't the pain and guilt would consume me. I can sum it up by saying I melted down in the early 2000s when I was self-employed and contending with gender dysphoria, and that combination was not a healthy one. The result was 21 months in a federal prison camp, released in March 2011.

I’m a graduate of Keene State and lifelong resident of New Hampshire.

Spiritually, I am a Reiki level two practitioner, and find myself drawn to what Sue Monk Kidd outlines in Dance of the Dissident Daughter.

Music is a passion, not in the playing, but in the listening. When alone, music has every imaginable effect upon me, and without it, I would probably not be around today. Play it loud, raise goose bumps on my old bones.

As mentioned, I am gender dysphoric, crossed gender lines at the height of my meltdown in 2003, and call the lesbian community home, the one place in my life I where I felt accepted by the community and a sense of belonging. The women of this community helped get me through what was a horrific time, and I am ever grateful and loyal in return.

Politically, I pretend to be a practical progressive and an avowed feminist, and once was co-host of the now defunct iVillage feminism board for close to three years.

As a Former Planned Parenthood Escort, I'm Cheering the New Hampshire Buffer Law

On Tuesday, we celebrated a little big victory. Our state committed to the safety of all who make use of, pass by, live near, or even object to reproductive health clinics.  At a time when the United States trends toward more restrictions on the right of reproductive choices, one state just went the other way: New Hampshire....more
survivelivethrive  I did. NH is reviewing the law, but it likely doesn't stand as is. We'll have ...more

Blindsided By a Name --Chelsea Manning

A storm raged, a private little tempest that sprouted over this town during my homeward commute, sparing everything outside a six-mile wide bubble. My short rush from car to home soaked me. Once inside, coping with soggy clothing and not yet motivated to change, I parked in front of my computer and found a message on whether I wished to write on Chelsea Manning....more
@nellewrites Hey there, thank YOU! For sharing your first person viewpoint, allowing me to ...more

Please show your support for the ERA!

Support the White House ERA petition effort.With one week left to go, we have just over 17,000 of the required 25,000 signatures necessary to elicit a presidential response.The ERA language:Section 1. Equality of rights under the law shall not be denied or abridged by the United States or by any state on account of sex.Section 2. The Congress shall have the power to enforce, by appropriate legislation, the provisions of this article....more

prologue to twin'n'ed

 PART ONE Chapter One  September 2006       Air rushed my lungs, an involuntary inhale born from shock.  Despite the chest-seizing gasp, my eyes refused to avert from the provocative picture splayed before me.  ...more
@nellewrites It definitely worked :)more


     Noveling.  The non-word describes my ongoing endeavour to hone something meaningful out of my convoluted mind and channel it via the English language.     Somewhere around 21 months ago, an ominous number with significance in another way, I wrote a moderate-length story titled Twined (with a carat inserted second n), one hundred and fifty or so pages in small cursive.    ...more
@Linda Anselmi How unfortunate to put in so much time only to surrender to he effort.  The ...more

Churning out titbits...

Possible interesting facts from my life…1a. I was born on the 16th anniversary of Krystallnacht.1b. On the 27th, the northeast United States and eastern Canada lost power.1c. On the 51st, the Berlin wall fell.2. I volunteer for Planned Parenthood, and occasionally for NARAL Pro-Choice NH....more
 @GrannyGee  Real, ayee. More like 'nuts'. ;-) But I thank you.more

Should creative writers opine on contentious issues?

Over the course of online involvement, I learned to discuss things of interest and importance to me, or things with impact upon my life.  The mix includes things good, and things bad, and I share a *cough* occasional opinion.No name mentioned here, but I recently visited an author’s blog, an author of many books, one well known to most regular novel readers out there.  One sentence in her words struck me as poignant.  Paraphrasing her words, she claimed it would be disastrous for an author to share an opinion on a religious or political topic. ...more
 @nellewrites I am getting ready with my comfy yoga pant and a cup of tea while waiting for the ...more

French doughnuts

Me writing a foodie post, ruh roh and sheesh.The following recipe comes not from me, but from my aunt via my mother. Caveat: This is not a health food post. Since you don't want me to blather on about batter, the recipe: French Doughnuts1 1/2 cups of flour1/3 cup butter1/2 cup milk1 egg2 1/4 teaspoons of baking powder1/4 teaspoon salt1/4 teaspoon of nutmeg ...more
Well I will have to try these. My son is addicted to donuts. Thanks!more


Is it dumb to say, "did this really happen to you,." I did a legal paper on Roe vs. Wade...and ...more

Planned Parenthood: an idea worth defending.

During 2011, politicians, commentators, and others have spent considerable time throwing disparaging remarks at Planned Parenthood, usually including wild claims distorting the proportional mix of the services it provides....more
@alienbody You are welcome... I attended a launch for and ...more