Phoenix Butt

This blog is something I've decided to do in order to bring myself closer to God; to figure out my every day issues while simultaniously talking to Him. My great grandparents were missionaries in the U.S. and I learned a great deal from them as well as from the church life I had from birth until high school graduation.

A little back story:

My parents divorced when I was very small, something I felt was best for all parties involved. I had a rather rough childhood that still managed to be turn out very nice. When I turned eighteen I changed my name. I no longer wished to be associated with my father and his family, people I hadn't seen since I was twelve. A year later I married a man with the last name Butt. My middle name being Phoenix it seemed that God was finding yet another way to keep me humble while making me laugh.

I've written many novels, one of which I self published.

I work with special needs children from middle school age to high school. It's not always an easy job but it's not always hard either. I do a great deal of art, in the school and at home. Some is for my books, some for the kids, and some are for friends. 

Letter 6

Dear Heavenly Father, I’m sitting at home watching, Under the Tuscan Sun, identifying with so much of what Francis is going through, minus the divorce and different country living. There isn’t much else to do when you’re sick other than watch movies while you think about where your life is going. ...more

Letter 5

Dear Heavenly Father, You know that Metallica song that goes, “… Hold my breath as I wish for death. Oh, God please wake me.” I’ve felt like that for a while. I don’t have the drive to write much of a letter, instead I’ll make you a list. I don’t know if it will help you, but possibly, hopefully, it will make things easier for me. Garbage:My computer crashed, which is why I haven’t written in so long.I feel ungrateful for what I have.I feel like it’s not enough....more

Letter 4

Dear Heavenly Father, Checking in. Wanted to let you know I haven’t forgotten about you. Also wanted to let you know that this week was terrible. ...more

Letter 3

Dear Heavenly Father, I haven’t talked to you in a while. Sorry about that. First off let me say a major big thank you for taking care of grandma. She’s doing mucho better, walking, having conversations, and taking showers by herself. We are very happy, mom, the family, and me. I’m writing for several reasons, all of which are basically to say a big, fat, I-love-you-so-very-much, thank you! ...more

Letter 2

Dear God, Grandma is sick. I have no doubt that you know but I needed to talk. She’s always been there through my life. Heck, she lived down the street from me for a good portion of it. It is hard for me to picture my life without her and I’m concerned. I say ‘concerned’ and not, ‘worried,’ or ‘scared,’ because, (and I’ve thought about this quite hard) I’m not worried about where she’s going and I certainly am not scared about it either. I am, however, concerned about the manner in which she is going to get there and how much I am going to miss her when she goes....more

Letter 1

Dear Heavenly Father,I realized this past weekend that I have spent an entire year doing not a single thing to better myself. I haven't gained anything spiritually, mentally, or physically, (which is nice in some ways though I'd really like to gain a great body. We'll work on that later.) The most annoying part about this problem is that I have no one to blame but myself....more