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My blog addiction is getting way out of hand. I'm on my lap constantly,
either writing a post, catching up on friends' blogs, or moderating
comments. Blogging is my drug of choice. "Hi, I'm Jaci, and I'm a compulsive blogger...."
My 2 1/2 year old daughter, Liz, cries when I sit at my computer, because she knows I won't move from there for a long, long time.
I barely realize she exists while I'm lost in my writing. I turn around
hours later to find the room trashed and Liz climbing the furniture,
with an expression of, "What do you expect, be-yotch! You weren't
watching me, so HA! Clean it up!"
My days are all running
together--I stumble to the computer first thing in the morning, coffee
in hand, and read all the comments left overnight. Then I check to see
if my new post is up (I am a post schedule options queen), and settle
in with my Google reader. I read, leave comments, read some more, check
to see if I have any more comments, check my site meter...next thing I
know it's 11:30 am, my daughter is moaning in hunger and boredom, and I
have a weird headache from staring at a screen all morning. After I
feed her and shove her in bed for her nap, I either clean--or more
likely--write posts. I've got myself convinced that I need to write a
post a day, so I'm slamming out ideas like an entry level journalist
with impossible deadlines, droplets of blood oozing off my forehead.
When my husband comes home from work the house is trashed, dinner isn't made, and I'm hunched over my computer muttering to myself. (I think
he's starting to worry about me.)
I love to write and there are
lots of crazy ideas rattling around in my psychotic brain, but my whole
reason for blogging was to motivate myself to work on my novel. I
haven't touched it since I started blogging--just like I haven't
touched my hairy bathrooms or that pile of laundry growing a powerful
funk in the basement.
I'm supposed to be writing about my life
as a SAHM, but instead all this writing is keeping me from it! To be
honest, the whole SAHM job really sucks. The monotony, the cleaning,
the sweatpants, the isolation, the boredom....it makes me depressed!
I'll do anything to escape from it, and right now I'm wasting my days
on the computer instead of enjoying my daughter and trying to find
creative ways to overcome the Mommy Monotony. (I have a feeling
"obsessive blogging" isn't the answer.
I need to find a balance between my work, my family, and my writing.
I'm not going to aim for a post a day anymore. Instead, I'm going to go
outside *gasp!* and enjoy the last month of summer with my daughter,
who will never be 2 1/2 and amazed by sandboxes ever again.
What about you? How do you detox from your blog addiction?
