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Recently a damning video of U.S. Marines urinating on dead Taliban fighters shocked the world, drawing condemnation of American military forces. The alleged actions of these men were wrong. No one, military member or not, condones this behavior. No one is above criticism in our country, and the outrage people have expressed at this travesty has its place in a free society.

I do not defend what these soldiers did. But I believe I can understand it. They are at war. We, the American people, through our government and our military, have asked our troops to kill our enemies. Whether you agree or disagree with the war in Afghanistan, the fact remains that we ARE at war, and these young men and women are killing in our names.

To kill, to be locked in bloody conflict, to know that if you don’t kill the enemy he will most assuredly kill you, is part of the hell of war. We who are not on the battlefield have the luxury of the finer scruples of civilized society. We can turn away in distaste. We can change the TV channel, shut off the computer, go to the kitchen for a snack. Our troops can’t.

These soldiers, as wrong as they were to disrespect dead enemies’ bodies, reacted similarly to my friend who said she wanted to spit on the graves of Nazi concentration camp guards.

Let’s walk a few steps in the boots of these soldiers. I teach soldiers, former soldiers, and their dependents every day.

Here’s a story about the last day of a college class in a military town bruised by years of war. Maybe it will shed some light on what we have asked of our military men and women in these interminable wars in Afghanistan and Iraq.

 

The last day of class. It’s also the last day of oral presentations of student research papers in this community college English class.

 I’ve been kidding this class the entire semester about being the best-ever class. Focused, mature, motivated. This class … they take my breath.

Here’s the last student to present her paper, Barbara.

Topic: Post traumatic stress disorder.

Barbara puts up a PowerPoint slide with a large “MA,” Mature Adults, warning on it. I’m a little uneasy.  We’re wondering when she will change slides on the projector, but she doesn’t. The MA stays.

She gives an overview of post-traumatic stress disorder. She talks in the third person about soldiers, and emphasizes they are mostly so young, 18-22 years old. Barbara, a non-traditional student with teenagers at home, also a former Marine, is about 40.

As I take notes and fill out my assessment sheet for Barbara’s presentation grade, I see that she is struggling a bit with her emotions.

She says the VA was not prepared for the returning vets. How they allot only three psych therapy sessions per soldier, yet give out mood-altering drugs so freely. How that is not an adequate response to returning soldiers.

Finishing up her presentation, she says she is going to show us some photos of Iraq and Afghanistan.

Her photos flash in relentless succession. Blood, mutilation, guys trying to drag buddies out of the small-arms fire in dusty streets. Guys blown-up in ditches. A man who has lost his face, who nonetheless survived and stands in dress blues with his bride on their wedding day.

“This is a picture of true love,” Barbara says. Her posture is erect, but her voice is starting to tremble.

She is in trouble. We can all see that.

Her last photo is of a chaplain handing an American flag to a little boy.

“That boy is Tyler,” she sighs. “I may get emotional.”

“Some things are worth getting emotional about. It’s okay,” I say, from my seat in the middle of the room among the students.

Barbara stops. I let ten long seconds go by, to give her a chance to continue if she wants to.

She stands in front of the class, her head bowed, tears streaming. How is she still standing?

I go up and hug her. She hugs back, hard.

“Is he someone you know?” I whisper.

“Yes.”

From somewhere, she finds the resolve to continue. She tells the class the story of Tyler, and also of herself.

When I was in Iraq,” she says, “we processed the bodies of soldiers for transport back home. Usually the Iraqis removed any ID from the bodies. There were no dog tags, no nothing. But this one man still had a picture of a little boy, his son, Tyler, in his pocket. I never forgot that little boy’s face.

“I happened to come across this picture

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Bad Luck Detective 103 pts

I read this a few days ago but needed time to process. Unfortunately I still don’t have the words. This post was so incredibly powerful. Thank you for sharing and reminding us what our military men and women experience and live with.

isthisthemiddle 839 pts

Bad Luck Detective Hello, friend. These students of mine teach me so much more than I can ever teach them. Thanks for sharing your thoughts, dear lady!

HomeRearedChef 1240 pts

Your post has wrenched my heart through my chest, Melanie. It is obvious to me that your love and soul went into writing it. You were bold and spoke for those you know. I had friends I knew, close and dear, that served in the Vietnam War. I saw their pain when they talked about what they went through. But as you said, we are here in the comfort of our homes, as they fight a war they've been sent out to, and must do what they are told.

Though that video was hard to see, one must try to imagine themselves in their shoes. Just try to imagine what they are going through and feeling, as they watch their companions suffer and die before their very eyes. How would we really behave, if we were them? It is much too easy to pass judgement.

War is HELL!

Love you, Amiga querida,

~Virginia

isthisthemiddle 839 pts

HomeRearedChef Oh, Virginia, thank you so much for understanding what I was trying to say. How can those of us who have not been on the battlefield ever really understand? War is hell and the hell lives on even after the soldier leaves the battlefield. Love you back, my dear friend.

SunbonnetSmart.com 375 pts

Hi there, Melanie! Commenting to let you know I am here...but, I really can't find words right now...Beautiful, POWERFUL post. A remarkable essay that will be commented to the top! Thank you. Much Love to you and Barbara, Fondly, Robin

isthisthemiddle 839 pts

SunbonnetSmart.com Hi Robin! So kind of you to visit. My students touch my heart every day. Love & hugs to you!

Forever 17 125 pts

Wow, beautifully written. It is so easy for people to judge others, and I think this is a great reminder to all that unless we have been in their shoes we have no idea what was going through their head. A bad decision maybe, maybe not, but I do thank each and every one of our service people that protect our Country and pray for their safe returns. Thank you Mel for sharing this.

isthisthemiddle 839 pts

Forever 17 Glad to see you here, my dear. I don't want our veterans to be forgotten or for people to judge all military members by the actions of a few. So thankful for your appreciation of them.

KarenLynnn 800 pts

There is no reason that our soldiers are discharged without the tools they need to help them adjust to life out after war. We've seen this with every war. It is pitiful how they process us out and let us just fend for ourselves. A stroll though Washington DC will show you how many Vietnam vets suffered from PSTD and just fell out of society and became homeless, landing in the place they think will help them-DC.

Marines are taught to kill. That's their job. It's the job of the drill sergeants in basic training to instill hatred of the enemy so that when they land on enemy soil they are ready to do their job. I didn't serve during wartime. But I met many marines just out of basic training back then, and when I asked them why they joined the Marines (I was Army) the answer was usually: TO KILL THE ENEMY. -there was no enemy in 1979.

As ugly as war is, there is just no excuse for us to lower ourselves to that level-urinating on the dead. I'm sure much worse goes on during war over there (wherever there is that the government sends our young people) that we will never see.

I am so sorry for Barbara's anguish and PSTD, it will be a lifetime and she won't ever forget the images she saw. I just pray that time will ease the pain of what she lived through.

Thank you for a passionate insightful post about what it is like after coming home.

isthisthemiddle 839 pts

KarenLynnn Thank you so much, KarenLynn, for your insights. I really struggled writing this post-- there were so many examples of brutality from the other side that I could have named, but logic says that two wrongs don't make a right. It was your post that made me try to work through my thoughts, and I'm still working. So thank you for bringing the issue to BlogHer, my dear.

Sometimes as a country we want it both ways-- we want a trained fighting force that's ready to kill on command. We want those same people to be able to turn off the adrenaline rush of battle and go back to being in polite society, and we expect they can do it seamlessly. I don't have answers for this.

KarenLynnn 800 pts

isthisthemiddle it takes the military what, 6 weeks to deprogram a young person and remold them emotionally and physically to become a loyal soldier, with the ability to defend the country and themselves, a killing machine if you will when they are faced with combat. Don't you think that they should have at least a few weeks to get "deprogrammed" or whatever the term is, when they come home? just help them, give them coping mechanisms, return them to society intact. why not have "post service drill camp"

you are so right about two wrongs don't make a right. i just want us to be better than "them" (whoever we are fighting) ... love you!

isthisthemiddle 839 pts

KarenLynnn I want us to be better, too, and don't want some people to judge every soldier by the actions of a few.

A program is in place for when vets return, but I haven't heard too many good comments about it. It's more like a going-through-the-motions series of classes on re-entry into stateside life, from what my students say.

The VA psychologists have caseloads in the thousands. A number of vets have run into trouble with the drugs prescribed for them to deal with PTSD-- not drug abuse by them, but being given improper doses, allergic reactions, side effects, or reactions with other drugs they take.

Thanks for caring, KarenLynn-- loving you back!

elaineR.N. 398 pts

A very beautiful insight into the pain and anguish of the survivors of the battlefield. Thank you for capturing that and relaying it through your post. Also, I too am sending a very big hug to Barbara to thank her for her service and to wish her recovery from her own PTSD.

isthisthemiddle 839 pts

elaineR.N. Thank you, Elaine. I respect your opinion so much. Your comments and posts helped me in my own thinking process about the incident. I'm still thinking!

I saw Barbara not too long ago and she gave me permission to write about the events of that day. She is doing okay, but it is a day by day process.

isthisthemiddle 839 pts

Thank you so much for the comment. The incident has made me think about war from a different perspective too. My dad was a WW II combat vet, and he was in the horrific 35 -day battle of Iwo Jima in the Pacific. He was forever changed by that experience and seeing his friends killed, wounded, blown up. War changes everything for the combat vets and everyone they know. The effects last a lifetime.

victorias_view 1753 pts moderator

isthisthemiddle A close friend of mine teaches elementary school on a military base. It has had it's share of loss of fathers who have not returned home from Afghanistan. She found there were days when the children were so tense that you could feel it the moment you walked into the school. War doesn't just stay on the battlefield it lingers for many years to come...

isthisthemiddle 839 pts

victorias_view So true. I'm just beginning to understand that the combat my dad experienced, even though it happened before I was born, affected how Dad lived and raised his children who were born years later. The ripples continue for generations.

Your friend must be a special person to cope and provide support for the children.

victorias_view 1753 pts moderator

isthisthemiddle She is a very special person and a very kind heart :) Did your Dad ever talk about the war? The older men in my family never did...

isthisthemiddle 839 pts

victorias_view No, he only talked about funny stories from those days that usually involved his Marine Corps buddies and beer. Or Navy nurses.

The men of that era were expected to keep all those awful memories inside. I don't know how they did it. Mom says Dad had violent nightmares for years.

victorias_view 1753 pts moderator

isthisthemiddle I couldn't imagine keeping all of that pain bottled up. I guess they just marched forward one step at a time. But those steps most have weighed heavy on their shoulders.

isthisthemiddle 839 pts

victorias_view I can't imagine trying to cope by pretending it didn't happen, or by saying it's over and best forgotten. Not that we always want to wallow in past pain, but there were so few options back then. Mental illness was seen as a weakness (and often still is). Yes, one step at a time.

Mental illness and PTSD have more recognition now, but can be incredibly hard to treat, especially when the health care system here is overwhelmed with returning vets.

KarenLynnn 800 pts

isthisthemiddlevictorias_view

we need reverse boot camp for our vets!

victorias_view 1753 pts moderator

isthisthemiddleKarenLynnn I think you raise a very good point! A stressed health system and economic downturn with an increase number of vets is a large puzzle for government to solve. I think they need to put the pieces together and find ways to facilitate treatment for these vets.

Many of these soldiers have given their time to defend on a global level and it's not far that they get wrong end of the stick when they return home. It's a matter of government to place more spending into these areas. But then we are walking into a murky area of government which is trying to balance the books.

isthisthemiddle 839 pts

victorias_viewKarenLynnn Good points, VV, and doesn't that seem like common decency after the promises made when vets enlisted?

victorias_view 1753 pts moderator

isthisthemiddleKarenLynnn It sounds like promises are broken to the vets listed. They serve their time to comeback broken with no safety net in place to help them cope with the atrocities of war.

isthisthemiddle 839 pts

victorias_viewKarenLynnn The mainstream media does not give the inadequate treatment of vets the attention it deserves. Sometimes I fear that I see so much of the neglect of vet's needs that I'll get used to it and accept it as the status quo.

Vets often have to fight long and hard for benefits they were promised. Many of them give up trying.

victorias_view 1753 pts moderator

isthisthemiddleKarenLynnn I think there are a lot of issues with mainstream media the fact that reality TV stars and celebrities are constantly taking the headlines in the news. It takes away from important issues such as war vets, poverty, and social injustices within the global community.

As well, it's hard these days to find unbias reporting that doesn't reflect the correspondents political views. Sometimes the waters are muddied and it's hard to get to the core of the issue when certain people use the news story of the day to fuel their own political agendas.

I believe in regards to many vets they get lost in the message. And it's a shame.

isthisthemiddle 839 pts

victorias_view The media is in a strange place now with the explosion of internet news and blogging, isn't it? For example, I haven't heard any news in months about Japan in the aftermath of the earthquake and tsunami. Isn't that more important than counting 2 or 3 votes in the Iowa caucus? Or whether or not Princess Kate is pregnant?

Some journalists are doing an outstanding job, but for the most part, I so agree that journalism and news reporting in general could be much, much better!

victorias_view 1753 pts moderator

isthisthemiddle I also agree there are many outstanding journalists and I find the best outlet news source for me is BBC International. However, it's a sad state when the Pregnant Kate or the next Lohan debacle sells more headlines.

SunbonnetSmart.com 375 pts

isthisthemiddle Semper Fi, Melanie....

isthisthemiddle 839 pts

SunbonnetSmart.com I do love that motto: Always Faithful.

victorias_view 1753 pts moderator

I did not watch the video but I was upset that they would do such a thing to another living being. But at the same time war is a double edged sword there is no excuse for what they did. However, how do we send these young men and women off to fight without the tools to cope?

A very powerful post Melanie and it leaves me with a lot to think about this evening.

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suzieivy Thanks my friend!

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isthisthemiddle I so loved that post! I've read it 3 times and cried every time but looooved it!

isthisthemiddle
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suzieivy Aww, took a year to write it. Didn't cry the day it happened, but bawled a lot since. Our troops do much we can be proud of.