My Bucket List is Fading...

 My Bucket List is fading.

 When I was young I expected to see the world.  I had all the confidence this was going to happen. I wasn't sure how…maybe a career that demanded my presence in key cities around the globe, or maybe hopping from hostel to hostel with a guy who shared my desire to travel.  But I’m finding myself in the middle of my life (if I’m lucky), and it hasn’t happened - and it’s not lookin’ good.

So, I made a “bucket list” of places I want to visit.  That is, after all, what we’re supposed to do when the clock is ticking and the countdown’s on, right?  It started out with the top ten places I wanted to see, but my bucket list is fading quickly.  Unless something drastically different happens in my life, I better eliminate most of them. I still have to figure out how to get my kids through college!

 I’m down to my top two picks…a tropical paradise like Bora Bora, and Italy.  I’m moving the rest of my dream destinations to my “if I win the lottery” bucket list.  Part of me is sad.  Actually, more like disappointed - in myself.  In this country we all have the opportunity to do anything, be anything … if we make the right choices, get to know the right people, put ourselves in the right situations.  But I didn’t do what it takes.

 The good news is I’m not a quitter.  Odds might be stacked against me, but I continue to wear my rose-colored glasses – and try to select the cups that are half full.  I still have the dream that one day I’ll make the right choices, meet the right people, do the right things.  Not just because I want to travel, but because I want to show my kids – first hand – that anything is possible if you set your mind to it.

 Right now, I’m thankful I even have a bucket.  Perhaps my list will become clearer in a better light, down the road.

 

By Rhonda Chaney http://www.midlifecafe.com   Email:  rchaney.midlifecafe@gmail.com

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