My Monster, My Demon
I've been struggling with an illness that has been taking over my mind, body, everything for over a decade. The doctors labeled it Multiple Sclerosis about five years ago, but what does that mean? It's such a generic...generality. There is no definitive test that comes up positive for MS, it's just a doctor's guess at a label and possible treatment for a HUGE amount of symptoms.
The worst part is that the treatments don't cure. Insult to injury, the treatments make you feel awful. Being relapse/remit and only having serious symptoms about three times a year I refuse the treatments. I am a truth seeker and an illness with no real cause just doesn't make sense. No cause is no cure.
So I researched. And researched more. And I've found one conclusion. Lyme. I tested negative for it which is not uncommon. Sadly, doctors won't touch the disease especially if you get a false negative. I had the bullseye rash over a decade ago and thought it was a spider bite. Stupid.
No worries. I'm taking matters into my own hands. How can a doctor treat this in ways that I cannot? Drugs? No problem. I have in my possession an insane amount of Doxycycline. I'm going to do a long term treatment of 100mg TID. I have faith.
If I have any adverse reactions, I will see a doctor and have tests done. Pill number one was taken about an hour ago. Wish me luck on banishing this hell.