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Sparkle (0)
"Hi, I'm sorry this is the only place I could think of to ask this question
How can I sever ties with my mother?
I don't mean legally. I don't think it's necessary to legally sever ties with my mother.
The thing is she has been abusive to me all through my childhood
and now that I've moved away from her and live by myself,
she still gives me visits about once a week without giving me a phone call.
She gets into my apartment building I guess by waiting for other people to get in
and my roommate opens the door for her. I guess I can tell her not to open the door but I didn't want to be judged.
Anyways, she destroys my mentality everytime she visits and I must fight hard to resist temptation to kill myself not to mention temtation to drop out of university, torture animals, murder other people, and hurt myself.
I've tried not to keep contact with her but it's hard because since I lived with her through childhood,
she's permanently engraved in my thoughts. and I can't help but think of her as someone to fall back on when I fail.
Sometimes I think I want her to come back and abuse me becaus I feel that I'm so worthless that I deserve all the pain in the world. But this is my mother talking in my head and is a totally illogical thought.
I guess I can tell my roommate not to open the door for her? Can I call cops on her if she insists on coming to my apartment or something? I don't want my roommates to know about this. I fear they will tell other people and rumor spread etc.
What can I do?
What do I tell my family?
Should I block her calls?
What about my family website?
What about visiting my sister who lives with her?
I'm sick of being on the verge of insanity because of this manipulative sociopath woman who accidentally became to have biological ties with me and used me as a punching bag for the past 18 yrs
Thanks"
