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Well, today was okay, but looking at myslef in a leotard made me feel fat. Dance can do that. and even though I'm doing htis for fun, i feel as if I'm pressured to become skinny and flexible. I can't do a cartwheel, and I'm not gonna try anymore. I miss my old town and city. Still, when i look at myslef i see a fat ugly 12 year old who needs to loose about 50 pounds.I don't know where or how to get more excersice. I can't eat healthier foods when my parents don't buy them. My life completley sucks. How am I supposed to see myslef as the funloving christian girl i am when all I seem to focus on is my ugliness and bad points??? I need some power independence and weight loss and I need 2 b healthy and fit and i need more than i get. i need love and support and family time and more than i get. i need more. My relationships with my sisters and family are not what i want them to be. I want to be able to talk to them freely and openly, but instead we end up fighting i go back to focusing on howw ugly I am and how pretty Marissa is. I fight with my sisters 24/7 and they can't seem to grasp the concept that I want to hang out with and be their friend. One of them thinks I'm a little midget, and the other one thinks I'm embarrassing. I just wish they would understand my feelings and reasons for trying to hang with them.
My blog is over fer 2day.
