I'm a Christian who after many years of questioning finally admitted to myself that I was gay in 2008. I've had three blogs in my blogging career. The first one was a family blog started in January of 2006 where I wrote about me, my husband, our children and our adventures living in Turkey. That blog has 807 posts. In the summer of 2008 I started writing an anonymous blog to deal with my feelings for a friend and about being gay. I fought with myself, processed, and began to discover who I was. I continued writing that blog for a little over a year with a total of 247 posts. I started my current blog last year in an attempt to mesh the ideas behind the other two blogs. I needed a home where I could tell family stories, share my struggle, and be me. While the other 2 blogs are still out there for me to look back on this is the one I plan to continue.