Retiring Baby: When Your Little One Grows Up

It's the night before the first day of school. Everyone's in good spirits, some more excited than others, but it's good enough. My youngest sat in bed, cuddling his little blue bear, “Baby.” I smiled as I remembered the first time I gave him that bear. He was a small guy, maybe three-years-old. He was going to bed and experiencing his typical nighttime anxiety, not wanting me to leave the room until he was fast asleep. I sat at the edge of his bed and picked up the little blue bear, and put it into his arms. He quickly cuddled it. ...more
Avery Lane So sweet! Gotta love those teddy bears. I will definitely save my son's Baby forever. more

Retiring Baby: When Your Little One Grows Up

It's the night before the first day of school. Everyone's in good spirits, some more excited than others, but it's good enough. My youngest sat in bed, cuddling his little blue bear, “Baby.” I smiled as I remembered the first time I gave him that bear. He was a small guy, maybe three-years-old. He was going to bed and experiencing his typical nighttime anxiety, not wanting me to leave the room until he was fast asleep. I sat at the edge of his bed and picked up the little blue bear, and put it into his arms. He quickly cuddled it. ...more
AW2SL Yes, go hug your 3 year old!!! I wish I could today. I miss those years! more

His Soul Is Burned Into Mine: Moving On Without Someone You Love

It is sometime during the 4:00 hour. I am lying, wide awake, in my bed sucking on a lozenge because I can't stop coughing. I've got a toddler's head rammed between my shoulder blades. I'm hot from all the blankets and lovies my ten-year-old has brought into my huge king-sized bed with him. The house is quiet and feels a little emptier with Hubby on a business trip despite all of the company I have in bed with me. Edgie has been pushing Slim in his sleep, "Move over Slim!! This my bed." And I roll my eyes because, no, it's MY bed; I smile in spite of it. ...more
Lovely, painful words that capture a mother’s love. Thank you for sharing. I hope you feel him ... more

Steve Wozniak Says "Jobs" Is "Not a Quality Movie." Is He Right?

Jobs starring Ashton Kutcher as the enigmatic Apple co-founder, has been getting a lot of negative critical reaction, even from Apple cofounder Steve Wozniak, who recently said that it "wasn't a quality movie." The film may not be a Hollywood blockbuster with explosions and comic book heroes, like many other of this summer's film offerings, but it isn't a slanted pseudo-hagiography, either. ...more
I took my son to see JOBS and it has lit a fire in him. He immediately read a book about Steve ... more

How to Keep it Together When Your Child is in a Mental Health Crisis

I cried far too much today. I cried because I have a sweet little ten-year-old boy who needs me to be a lot stronger than I am. I cried because I can't seem to give him what he needs, get him what he needs. I cried because he told us he's sad all the time, he can't make his brain shut off, he feels weird and out of place in this world, and he wishes he could be more like his brothers. I cried harder still when he saw me crying and reassured me that he was going to get better. ...more
What a beautiful post of a mother’s love. One that’s tested and taken to the ends of the earth ... more

The Keeper: A Tale of Late-Childhood Asperger's Diagnosis

"I ... uh ...," I groped for words. "I guess I am a little offended?" It came out as a question. I tried again. "You just spent less than an hour with him. His testing last year didn't say anything about that. He's extremely verbal. He's extremely social. He's never had an issue with eye contact. He has tons of friends and plays well with others. He's incredibly compassionate, always the first one to run over and ask if you're hurt or get upset if someone else is upset." The doctor was still just looking at me, waiting for me to run out of steam. "He's very social," I repeated. "Aren't people with autism ... you know ... not?" ...more
Thank you for this post, currently my youngest (8 years old)  is going through evaluations for ... more

For Better or For Worse: How a Marriage Survives Raising a Special Needs Child

My husband and I decided to share with you one of many challenges we’ve faced in our marriage and the lessons we learned with hopes to encourage any of you who may find yourself in a similar situation. Like any good story, I have to start from the beginning. When my son was first diagnosed with mental illness, my husband and I took two very different paths to cope....more
Glad to know that my husband and I are not alone. It was scary to write such a personal post on ... more

When Medicating Kids Goes Very, Very Wrong

"I want you to consider taking some anti-anxiety medication. As in, tomorrow." I thanked her sincerely, told her I'd look into it, and left the medical center. I'd appreciated that quiet two-hour break from my computer and household chaos, even with the blood draws and chest x-rays. That was four months ago, and I still haven't taken the recommended medication, despite advice from both friends and professionals to do so. Why am I hesitant? Because it was my son's horrible reaction to anti-anxiety medication that helped land me in that clinic....more
Thank you for listing my post in the end. I can so relate to your frustrations. Medication, ... more

When Blogging Hurts...

I’m not a recruiter for CABF.I’m not a psychiatrist or therapist.I’m not an advocate for pharmaceutical companies.I’m not brainwashed, unevolved or the source of a serious parenting problem.I am a mom.I’m a mom who’s fighting for her son’s life.I’m a mom who doesn’t have all the answers and often feels ill equipped.I’m a mom who’s disappointed that the research isn’t farther along.I’m a mom who’s terrified of possible side effects.I’m a mom who’s questioning everything our doctor suggests....more
@Forever 17 Thank you Forever 17, I appreciate your kind words! more

When Love Harms

"The practice of love can be expressed in one sentence: ‘Do not harm others’." - H.H. the Dalai Lama, (tweeted August 22, 2011)Last month was a sad time at my alumni campus, the University of Idaho. Ernesto Bustamante - known as Professor B, or simply 'E', murdered a graduate student by the name of Katy Benoit with his .45 calibre handgun outside of her home, shooting her over a dozen times in the throat and chest before barricading himself in a local hotel room and killing himself....more
@bumpkinandme Thanks for clarifying, it makes sense now. It is sad that when people with mental ... more