Suicide: A Child's Perspective

I was twelve when my father killed himself. That is young. That is a very impressionable age. Eighteen years later I can say that I kind of wish I never knew. I wish people had lied to me until I was older, old enough to say, “meh, really he killed himself, gee I never knew.” instead of being that young and doing every single thing wrong -- beginning the day I found out. When you are twelve you don’t fully understand loss. What you do understand is that people are suddenly really nice to you. As a kid I learned that the boy I had a crush on was nicer to me for an entire week because my dad had died. I learned that the mean girls were nice for a few days, and I learned that people around me were saying, “go easy on her, she just lost her dad.” Not every twelve year old would react like me, but my reaction? ...more
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Suicide: A Child's Perspective

I was twelve when my father killed himself. That is young. That is a very impressionable age. Eighteen years later I can say that I kind of wish I never knew. I wish people had lied to me until I was older, old enough to say, “meh, really he killed himself, gee I never knew.” instead of being that young and doing every single thing wrong -- beginning the day I found out. When you are twelve you don’t fully understand loss. What you do understand is that people are suddenly really nice to you. As a kid I learned that the boy I had a crush on was nicer to me for an entire week because my dad had died. I learned that the mean girls were nice for a few days, and I learned that people around me were saying, “go easy on her, she just lost her dad.” Not every twelve year old would react like me, but my reaction? ...more
 @coppercourtyard Big hugs right back!!!!  I think my dad was that age when he first threatened ... more

Suicide: A Child's Perspective

I was twelve when my father killed himself. That is young. That is a very impressionable age. Eighteen years later I can say that I kind of wish I never knew. I wish people had lied to me until I was older, old enough to say, “meh, really he killed himself, gee I never knew.” instead of being that young and doing every single thing wrong -- beginning the day I found out. When you are twelve you don’t fully understand loss. What you do understand is that people are suddenly really nice to you. As a kid I learned that the boy I had a crush on was nicer to me for an entire week because my dad had died. I learned that the mean girls were nice for a few days, and I learned that people around me were saying, “go easy on her, she just lost her dad.” Not every twelve year old would react like me, but my reaction? ...more
 @JosiahM I hear a lot it's about pain.  But I have to insert into it my fathers massive ... more

Suicide: A Child's Perspective

I was twelve when my father killed himself. That is young. That is a very impressionable age. Eighteen years later I can say that I kind of wish I never knew. I wish people had lied to me until I was older, old enough to say, “meh, really he killed himself, gee I never knew.” instead of being that young and doing every single thing wrong -- beginning the day I found out. When you are twelve you don’t fully understand loss. What you do understand is that people are suddenly really nice to you. As a kid I learned that the boy I had a crush on was nicer to me for an entire week because my dad had died. I learned that the mean girls were nice for a few days, and I learned that people around me were saying, “go easy on her, she just lost her dad.” Not every twelve year old would react like me, but my reaction? ...more
 @mdkishere I have nothing against ALL step parents, my step dad is the only dad I consider an ... more

Suicide: A Child's Perspective

I was twelve when my father killed himself. That is young. That is a very impressionable age. Eighteen years later I can say that I kind of wish I never knew. I wish people had lied to me until I was older, old enough to say, “meh, really he killed himself, gee I never knew.” instead of being that young and doing every single thing wrong -- beginning the day I found out. When you are twelve you don’t fully understand loss. What you do understand is that people are suddenly really nice to you. As a kid I learned that the boy I had a crush on was nicer to me for an entire week because my dad had died. I learned that the mean girls were nice for a few days, and I learned that people around me were saying, “go easy on her, she just lost her dad.” Not every twelve year old would react like me, but my reaction? ...more
 @Rita Arens Don't be, it helped me find my husband and have the kids I have and become a better ... more

Suicide: A Child's Perspective

I was twelve when my father killed himself. That is young. That is a very impressionable age. Eighteen years later I can say that I kind of wish I never knew. I wish people had lied to me until I was older, old enough to say, “meh, really he killed himself, gee I never knew.” instead of being that young and doing every single thing wrong -- beginning the day I found out. When you are twelve you don’t fully understand loss. What you do understand is that people are suddenly really nice to you. As a kid I learned that the boy I had a crush on was nicer to me for an entire week because my dad had died. I learned that the mean girls were nice for a few days, and I learned that people around me were saying, “go easy on her, she just lost her dad.” Not every twelve year old would react like me, but my reaction? ...more
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The Troubling Message in Fifty Shades of Grey

As someone who believes the world could do with a more open-minded approach to peoples consensual sexual interests, I wanted to like Fifty Shades of Grey. But as I read the book, I found it not only sets people who live a BDSM lifestyle back decades in terms of being understood by society, but that it eroticizes dangerous practices as well, especially for those who are new to this aspect of sexuality and looking to incorporate it into their lives. ...more
I read this book and fell in love with the love story.  However a lot of what Christian did ... more

The Troubling Message in Fifty Shades of Grey

As someone who believes the world could do with a more open-minded approach to peoples consensual sexual interests, I wanted to like Fifty Shades of Grey. But as I read the book, I found it not only sets people who live a BDSM lifestyle back decades in terms of being understood by society, but that it eroticizes dangerous practices as well, especially for those who are new to this aspect of sexuality and looking to incorporate it into their lives. ...more
 @FashionistaNYC I really wish she would have finished "meet fifty shades."  I would have ... more

Suicide: A Child's Perspective

I was twelve when my father killed himself. That is young. That is a very impressionable age. Eighteen years later I can say that I kind of wish I never knew. I wish people had lied to me until I was older, old enough to say, “meh, really he killed himself, gee I never knew.” instead of being that young and doing every single thing wrong -- beginning the day I found out. When you are twelve you don’t fully understand loss. What you do understand is that people are suddenly really nice to you. As a kid I learned that the boy I had a crush on was nicer to me for an entire week because my dad had died. I learned that the mean girls were nice for a few days, and I learned that people around me were saying, “go easy on her, she just lost her dad.” Not every twelve year old would react like me, but my reaction? ...more
 @dash4you Donna, First of all let me start this off with a hint of humor, I went to a therapist ... more

Suicide: A Child's Perspective

I was twelve when my father killed himself. That is young. That is a very impressionable age. Eighteen years later I can say that I kind of wish I never knew. I wish people had lied to me until I was older, old enough to say, “meh, really he killed himself, gee I never knew.” instead of being that young and doing every single thing wrong -- beginning the day I found out. When you are twelve you don’t fully understand loss. What you do understand is that people are suddenly really nice to you. As a kid I learned that the boy I had a crush on was nicer to me for an entire week because my dad had died. I learned that the mean girls were nice for a few days, and I learned that people around me were saying, “go easy on her, she just lost her dad.” Not every twelve year old would react like me, but my reaction? ...more
 @Nora DePalma Thank you again! I appreciate it. more