TWIN A ...The Little King

December 31, 2006 I gave birth to our twins Ryan and Felicity.They were born 3 months premature due of a flurry of pregnancy complications. Ryan, twin A, was the first born at 10:57pm. He weighed a mere 2lbs2ozs which was still 4ozs more than his twin sister! Even though he was very tiny and sick, he was still perceived to be stronger than his sister right from the start. In some ways this was true, he was larger and seemed to have less complications overall. Still, the fact remains that he was a long way from being healthy....more
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Remembering July 2, 1995 ~WARNING!!! Suicide mentioned~

Rewind back to July 2, 1995...I was a very troubled 22 year old girl on the brink of absolute destruction. I was abusing drugs and even worse, I didn't think there was anything wrong with it. My life was a complete mess and everyone could see it except for me. I was still reeling from a tumultuous 2 year relationship that ended with me in the emergency room and my ex boyfriend in jail. I really believed that if everyone, especially my mother, would get off my back and accept my lifestyle that things would be okay. However, my mother was unrelenting....more
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Working Moms Don't Choose for Their Babies to Die

She was so happy to be a mother, finally. She is one of those women that just is a mother. Even before she had children, she was a mother. Her baby died. At school, during naptime. She just fell asleep and never woke up. And my heart aches for her, for the owners of the preschool, for the teachers that were in the room with her. But the anger that I feel about the unfairness of this situation (for everyone involved), is less than what I am feeling for the unrelenting, hate mongers who commented on the news story: Women that choose to work, are choosing this for their children....more
How dare anyone judge her! Prayers to her and her loved ones. <3 more

Welcome!

I'm calling my blog "FINDING MAXINNE" because it's time...Time to find myself after years of losing myself to infertility, being what I thought a wife "should" be and being what I thought a mother "should" be. Like many women, I found myself questioning,"Who am I and how in the hell did I get here?". Somewhere during the years between being diagnosed with infertility and ultimately having my little girl diagnosed with cerebral palsy I lost my identity. This is not about returning to who I once was, but becoming who I really am.~Yours Truly...more
Thank you Victoria! I'm sure I will have questions and will ask as they arise:) more

Welcome!

I'm calling my blog "FINDING MAXINNE" because it's time...Time to find myself after years of losing myself to infertility, being what I thought a wife "should" be and being what I thought a mother "should" be. Like many women, I found myself questioning,"Who am I and how in the hell did I get here?". Somewhere during the years between being diagnosed with infertility and ultimately having my little girl diagnosed with cerebral palsy I lost my identity. This is not about returning to who I once was, but becoming who I really am.~Yours Truly...more
 @Isabel_Anders Thank you Isabel! more

Welcome!

I'm calling my blog "FINDING MAXINNE" because it's time...Time to find myself after years of losing myself to infertility, being what I thought a wife "should" be and being what I thought a mother "should" be. Like many women, I found myself questioning,"Who am I and how in the hell did I get here?". Somewhere during the years between being diagnosed with infertility and ultimately having my little girl diagnosed with cerebral palsy I lost my identity. This is not about returning to who I once was, but becoming who I really am.~Yours Truly...more
 @SunbonnetSmart.com Thank you! I checked out a few other blog sites first. I'm glad I found ... more