the day i almost died...

As I lay on the hospital bed with monitors hooked up to me and machines beeping and squealing, I can't help but think of my friend who died just a few days prior...doing the same thing I'm doing now.  I. am. terrified.My nurse looks worried as she checks the numbers. The doctor walks in to check on me, and the look of concern on everyone's face is alarming to me. ...more

momma needs her coffee (thoughts on autism & friendship)

I woke up this morning, and promptly wanted to go back to sleep.That has got to be a bad sign when you're ready to go back to bed before your feet have even hit the floor.I'm sure I'll survive stumble through my day without hurting anyone.I've got a list of things to get done for this birthday party on the weekend and to be honest I don't even know where to start. I wish I had started planning this months ago so everything was already in place and it was just a matter of setting it all out....more