The core of my fear

There are a lot of things I'm afraid of. I'm afraid of people, books, internet, food, guys, Korea, terrorism, death, Canada, politics, church, God, friends, family, my mother, my exboyfriend, my roommates, my stuffed animal, coffee etc. etc. Well pretty much everything in life. But why? I've wondered why for so long. I think I finally know why. I'm afraid of the suspense! When I lived with my mother. Everyday the violence happened. She cursed at me and hit me. It was what I always expected from her and it always happened. ...more

My mother was also abusive. She used to tell us that she hated us and that we were the worst ... more

Mirror Images

Do I think others are not sincere in their compliments because I am not always sincere in mine?Do I think everyone is thinking criticaly of me, because I think critically of them?Do I always assume others are talking about me behind my back, because I talk about others?Have you looked in the mirror lately? ...more

 The most important person is you, you have to like yourself before anyone else can.

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Lately I've really been thinking about life. What it is, what it means, and what is beyond it. I;ve been thinkning about how life turns out the way it does, and how some people actually let it get that way. Basically, I've been thinking about the value of life and how percious it is. How can anyone take it for granted. Life is amazing, no matter how you look at it. It's like an open canvas, and we can use it to exress ourselves, make a name for ourselves, and to create any picture you want. This meaning metaphorically that we all open up with a clean slate and we all have oppurtunities. ...more

It took me 31 years to find my inner strength and recover from a life of drug addiction. So ... more

Take Me Away: Escapist Reading

Sometimes life... well it just needs escaping. Maybe the economy has you down. Maybe you are trying really hard not to think about Thanksgiving with extended family. Maybe you are trying to ignore the fact that there are already radio channels dedicated to Christmas carols. Maybe it's all of those things and all you want to do is get away. If that's the case, escapist reading is where it's at. Step into a book and be another person, sit on a sunny beach, rescue the prince and maybe slay a dragon or two along the way. ...more

  I am a published author. I am also a escapist reader. When I am writing, some times I get ... more

Facing my fears. I did not want to die addicted to drugs

  So many people are dying from drug addiction. The worlds drug addiction rate is at it's record high, and it is so sad, because WE DO RECOVER. The most important tool in my successful recovey was listening to other addicts about their addiction, and how they are now living a drug free life.  is one of my ways of putting my hand out to help. I want everyone to know that no matter how hard life gets, how hopelss it seems, there is always a better life waiting for you. We do recover. ...more

I would love to hear from people about theirs stories or if you have any guestions