My Brother Broke My Heart by Jean Kwok

Let me tell you about the worst thing that has ever happened to me. As the youngest of seven children, I used to lie in bed and worry about the rest of my family all dying before me. My only consolation was my older brother Kwan, who was the closest to me in age. We would go through it together, until the bitter end, and in my over-imaginative mind, I thought that saying good-bye to him would be the worst of all. Then, in November 2009, Kwan disappeared a few days before Thanksgiving weekend. ...more

Jean,

Thanks for sharing this wonderful and special relationship you & your brother shared. ... more

Triathlon Training and Nutrition: Lana Bars at Full Throttle

I am almost always hungry.I don't have a tapeworm (at least I don't think I do). What I do have is a triathlon team: the Full Throttle Endurance training team. I haven't been training with them for long, but it's made an impact on me and my appetite....more

Thanks for inspiring me with your triathlon story! I recently could barely sleep when going on ... more

More on cancer grief: letting go, being in the "flow"

I can't begin to describe how amazing my life has become in such a short time. The death of my brother, while hard, has lead to incredible things manifesting in my life. Truth be told, I forgot to mention in my last post that I felt a lot of loneliness this last week. It was that familiar old "woe is me" despair from the last two years. I'd often feel it after returning from a visit with my mom or my brother.  It was me trying to fill a "god-sized hole" with another person, to take the emptiness & loss away. ...more

So glad it helped you, Katy! Thanks for the Tripping site, too. It looks really great. Another ... more

Finding Out About a Death on Facebook

Last week was a tough one for me on Ye Olde Facebook. On two consecutive days, I learned about two deaths through status updates. The news itself - and the form of delivery - had me reeling with a weird sense of connected disconnectedness. Does death even have a place on Facebook? Do those online relationships really run that deep? How do I properly handle this? ...more

Hey H!

Great blog. The comments were thought-provoking, too.

As you know my mom & brother ... more

When love can be too much

Maybe I've had this grief thing all wrong.   Maybe the Daughter of Cancer blogger had it right all along. All her crying, whining, wallowing, and carrying-on; maybe that's it. Maybe that's how to deal with grief. The alternative seems to be killing me, or at least that's how it feels today. While waiting at the bus stop Thursday on my way to work, my neck & left shoulder spasmed severely, to the point where I felt my head jerk.   ...more

hi Talia,

Thank you for your reply. I appreciate your perspective. It takes a lot of courage ... more

When love can be too much

Maybe I've had this grief thing all wrong.   Maybe the Daughter of Cancer blogger had it right all along. All her crying, whining, wallowing, and carrying-on; maybe that's it. Maybe that's how to deal with grief. The alternative seems to be killing me, or at least that's how it feels today. While waiting at the bus stop Thursday on my way to work, my neck & left shoulder spasmed severely, to the point where I felt my head jerk.   ...more

hi Talia,

Thank you for your reply. I appreciate your perspective. It takes a lot of courage ... more

Sexual Harassment is Adult Bullying (and It's Alive and Well)

This week I was reminded I was a woman. Not in an empowering, positive way, but in a objectifying, belittling, humiliating way. This week, though, in under an hour, I was reminded that smart, attractive women with ideas aren't always welcome. In fact, we are threatening and must be demoralized so as to prevent any inclination to rise up and do more than stay at home with the kids. ...more

Hi Melanie,

So glad you didn't take the job. Check out the "The No A$$hole Rule" by Robert ... more

Blogging Through Adversity: WhyMommy Susan Niebur and Others Fight Cancer One Word at a Time

Astrophysicist, mother, and BlogHer extraordinare, Susan Niebur, learned that her cancer had returned this week. ...more

Thanks for a great article! It's sad that there are so many blogs on cancer, that so many people ... more

Thoughts on Grief

"Grief turns out to be a place none of us know until we reach it.  We anticipate (we know) that someone close to us could die, but we do not look beyond the few days or weeks that immediately follow such an imagined death.  We miscontstrue the nature of even those few days or weeks.  We might expect if the death is sudden to feel shock....more

I really appreciate your support! Thanks for spreading the word. Only 22 days left til the man ... more

Blogging Through Adversity: WhyMommy Susan Niebur and Others Fight Cancer One Word at a Time

Astrophysicist, mother, and BlogHer extraordinare, Susan Niebur, learned that her cancer had returned this week. ...more

Thanks for your inspiring post. My mother's brain cancer has affected her nervous system so ... more