Getting out the Meat Cleaver

A few weeks ago, I went to a single dad event held by a non-profit organization I'm partnering with for future workshops. Upon leaving, all the single parents were given gifts to take home, some were food items. I was given a large package of hamburger patty meat. As I left, the lady handing the food to me said, "Just stick it in the freezer." When I got home, in typical A Clueless Mom fashion, that's EXACTLY what I did....more

It's TIme

Lucky for me, my sister put my bag within arm's reach. I lean over, dig through its contents, until I find what I'm looking for. There it is! Ocean blue and screaming my's as though I've never seen a better sight in my entire life. And at that moment, I don't think I have. I plug it in and wait a few minutes. Then the magic starts to happen. I have no mirror or hair pins, so I'm not even sure how this is going to work. But I'm desperate....more

The Things We Think About During Labor and Delivery

My sister calls her husband back who has finally found my hospital list. I feel bad, because I know it's going to take him a while to pack my bag. Let me explain. Last night, when I was experiencing leaking, I started getting my things together. What I mean by that is I began throwing things that I might need into a suitcase, without much thought behind how much I was packing. Before I knew it, the suitcase was overflowing...and yes, I knew I would only be in the hospital a couple of days, but I wanted to be prepared....more

Useless Epidural Advice: Think of the Letter C

All of a sudden I feel this sharp pain in my lower left back. The pain makes me tense, so when she puts the epidural in, she says, "Arch your back." The lovely nurse says, "Think of the letter C." I'm thinking of the letter C. Okay. The anesthesiologist nurse says, "I didn't get it. We will have to try again."...more
@MyMommysPlace That sounds like a lot better experience. Wish I had that calming feeling. I ...more

So This Is What Labor Feels Like

I can tell by my sister's part of the conversation, my brother-in-law is losing his patience. He can't find my list and his daughter is screaming. My sister says, "Well then go change her and call me back."Just as my sister hangs up the phone, the doctor arrives. He decides he's going to break my water...goody for me. I'm not exactly sure what to expect when he says that, but I guess it just means I'll be one step closer.As the doctor feels my stomach, I say, "How much do you think he will weigh? I want to see if you or my doctor is closer." ...more

My Worst Nightmare

I’m not ready for this. I still have things to do. He’s not supposed to come for two more weeks. Well, at least another week. I was willing him to come the first week in November…after Halloween. No, I can’t be contracting. I don’t feel a thing. What the heck? I don’t have a bag with me. I don’t have anything with me. Ohhhhhh-myyyyy-gooooossssshhhhh (as though it’s one word drawn out)....more

OH NO, This Can't Be Happening...

As I get ready to go to my mom's house the next day, I feel fine. The situation from last night doesn't even enter my thoughts, as I quickly pull my hair back and throw on some clothes. It's just my mom and my sister's family; I don't need to look good for them. They've seen me at my worst. It's about 4 p.m. when I get there, and my twelve-year-old nephew greets me with a hug and whispers, "Did your water break?" I knew it was so unlike him to offer a hug, because usually it's me begging for one. I guess it's that your aunt a hug is soooo uncool....more

An Unexpected Surprise

The day started out just like any other day. I got up lazily late and made my way to the bathroom. Just like every other morning, the bathroom is my first stop, especially at almost 38 weeks pregnant. This time, however, I notice something different. As I pull down my pajama bottoms and panties, I notice a little wetness but don’t think much of it....more

Unplan Your Life

When things first happen, they don’t always appear how they should be. They may seem daunting or scary. They may not be what you want or how you planned. Life may not be working the way you envisioned it would.I had a plan for my life. I have always been career driven. Even before I graduated from college, I knew I wanted to be someone… to do something spectacular. Who and what that was, I didn’t know. I just knew I wanted it…almost desperately....more

What Is Success?

When I was younger, I had a vision for my life. I was going to be successful…that was always a priority of mine. To be successful. I always connected success with a career, never with a family. Yes, I would get married and have kids, but a successful career was of the utmost importance to me....more